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Post by Dani on Mar 14, 2018 14:16:50 GMT
That warmed my heart a lot. Thank you. I'm happy you're still around!  I'm asking because I'd love to know if I'm as annoying to others as the way I find myself to be sometimes, that's all  I was a very active member on the Italian forum (waaay too active sometimes, lol) so I think I know how you feel. Since it got pretty much abandoned, I missed writing and sharing my passion for P!nk with other people. So thanks for welcoming me (again). It's good to be back ♡. PS. I remember seeing you at some point but can't remember what concert it was! Maybe Amsterdam or Berlin?!  I haven’t been to Amsterdam for Pink so it must have been Berlin |
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Post by Dani on Mar 14, 2018 14:17:30 GMT
well hi to our new mods! Hej hej 👋😄 |
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Post by littlepeculiar on Mar 14, 2018 16:33:33 GMT
Maren are you aware that nobody would have remembered that this happened with you if you didn't just post those old posts... I honestly remember just a tiny little thing now when you brought it back... Otherwise it would have been burried along with the original forum and it's past in 2 days... Just forget about it, be a bigger person, we are supposed to be older and wiser now, and try to move on and be positive about it. Even laugh about it. Just don't obsess over this whole thing for your own sake. I know, and I'm sorry I brought it up too. People do remember. My memory is a bit shattered so I don't remember it all, so I did it because I was curious and thought I was ready... But I wasn't. I am currently working on accepting it. I shouldn't have gone back to pp and searched, that was a huge mistake. Thanks for the reminder. ❤️ I remember. And at least one of the posts you took screen shots of must have been mine,probably several. No one knew what was going on, now that youve told us you were psychotic it makes sense. I remember being afraid at first that you would actually die, then it just got weirder and so confusing it started to feel like someone was just making fun of us. I remember something about talking about if we could reach your family to get you help. I'm sorry for you Maren. And sorry for how this all must make you feel to read now. And I'm sorry for what I've said to and about you. |
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Post by Fuckingperfect on Mar 14, 2018 17:25:31 GMT
It is hard to let go of these things, but please try to remember these people don’t know you or the reality of what you were dealing with at the time. A computer screen makes it a lot easier to lose compassion when you can’t see the effect your words have on people, and that's all they saw. Words. It wouldn’t take much for a cynical person to doubt you, but they don’t know your truth. Maybe they would be mortified if they realised. That's exactly the problem. People tend to get big mouthed when they write things behind their computer screen, but that doesn't justify anything. It was very obvious something was going on with me, and the ones I'm referring to have known me for several years before things went wrong, and "shouting" at me (using Caps and exclamation marks), only made things worse. It made my psychosis progress rapidly, and that's the opposite of how to communicate with someone being delusional. Don't get me wrong here, I am not blaming anyone for doing something wrong, because I know they might not have any experience or knowledge. And I completely understand they had no idea what to do, and I also understand I scared the shit out of them. I hope this was a valuable lesson for everyone witnessing my madness. Whenever you come across someone who appear to be psychotic, never raise your voice, or convince them they are wrong, because that only adds fuel to the fire. Trust me, I know. And I have met several people who are psychotic, talking in a calm voice is the way to go. I seriously thought I was right about everything, and I also humiliated myself in public, not only on the internet. I feel bad for saying I am disappointed, but that's how I feel. I know I would be devastated to find out that my words had that kind of impact on anyone else, if I were in their shoes. But I forgive, at least the majority of the lot. |
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Post by Fuckingperfect on Mar 14, 2018 18:09:58 GMT
Well, you also said you "no longer cared about me tbh", but also told me I was ruining the forum. And like many others ridiculed my illness, and made people laugh about my situation. You don't know the story behind why I got ill in the first place. It was never about the drugs. Someone made my life a living hell and would do anything to destroy me and many others. I'm talking about a seriously insane sociopath who made people lose their kids to foster care by telling lies, tried to make a friend of mine lose her job and licence as a nurse, as a means of revenge , just to mention a few things. I know you were worried about me there's no doubt about that, and I DO appreciate that I got banned eventually. But seriously, there was no need to talk shit about me after I was gone. Ok, I'm sorry I even post in this thread. I'll stop ruining yet another forum. Quote me doing that please. i do not remember ever thinking what was happening to you was funny in any way. i probably told you to get help multiple times as did others because there was nothing else we could do. anyway, i repeat that nobody knew what was happening to you because noone told us. maybe you remember what i told you when years later you sent a group message on facebook, maybe you don't, but i meant it and i felt sorry for you and still do and don't blame you for what happened. i'm honestly sorry if some things came out wrong. I'll send you in a DM instead. I've already done enough damage to this forum by bringing this up. And I swear, if that Parisian b...h comes in here, I'm out. |
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Post by Fuckingperfect on Mar 14, 2018 21:03:31 GMT
Thinking a lot about what I said earlier today. I am so sorry for being overly sensitive. It's not you guys, it's me. This whole PP situation is hard on all of us, and the last thing you guys need, is for me to be bitter about shit happening in the past. I love you all. <3
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Post by Fuckingperfect on Mar 14, 2018 21:11:17 GMT
I know, and I'm sorry I brought it up too. People do remember. My memory is a bit shattered so I don't remember it all, so I did it because I was curious and thought I was ready... But I wasn't. I am currently working on accepting it. I shouldn't have gone back to pp and searched, that was a huge mistake. Thanks for the reminder. ❤️ I remember. And at least one of the posts you took screen shots of must have been mine,probably several. No one knew what was going on, now that youve told us you were psychotic it makes sense. I remember being afraid at first that you would actually die, then it just got weirder and so confusing it started to feel like someone was just making fun of us. I remember something about talking about if we could reach your family to get you help. I'm sorry for you Maren. And sorry for how this all must make you feel to read now. And I'm sorry for what I've said to and about you. No actually, neither of them came from you, but I did ss a few of yours which I found offensive, but like you said, you had no clue what was going on and I don't blame you for being worried. The ones I posted came from the French Anna. Her comments were really rude, and I've yet to share the worst comments. You're forgiven. <3 I find it way harder forgiving myself. That's the hardest part. I probably was a bit harsh towards you guys with my comments, I know that. I wrote it whilst bawling my eyes out, I wasn't thinking clear. |
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Post by Fuckingperfect on Mar 15, 2018 5:22:59 GMT
Holy. I only just woke up and I feel like a zombie.  |
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Post by Dani on Mar 15, 2018 16:15:40 GMT
I am thinking that I should walk back home now but I'm too tired to even get up from this chair at work. And let me add I checked out 45 minutes ago. #tootiredforthis
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Post by Fuckingperfect on Mar 15, 2018 21:42:12 GMT
Damnit, my laptop is acting weird and keeps disconnecting my wifi. Just what I needed when my phone is close to dying as well. Let's hope I'll win myself some money from the lottery soon.
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Post by littlepeculiar on Mar 16, 2018 8:38:13 GMT
I remember. And at least one of the posts you took screen shots of must have been mine,probably several. No one knew what was going on, now that youve told us you were psychotic it makes sense. I remember being afraid at first that you would actually die, then it just got weirder and so confusing it started to feel like someone was just making fun of us. I remember something about talking about if we could reach your family to get you help. I'm sorry for you Maren. And sorry for how this all must make you feel to read now. And I'm sorry for what I've said to and about you. No actually, neither of them came from you, but I did ss a few of yours which I found offensive, but like you said, you had no clue what was going on and I don't blame you for being worried. The ones I posted came from the French Anna. Her comments were really rude, and I've yet to share the worst comments. You're forgiven. <3 I find it way harder forgiving myself. That's the hardest part. I probably was a bit harsh towards you guys with my comments, I know that. I wrote it whilst bawling my eyes out, I wasn't thinking clear. hey, you're not being overly sensitive. You're trying to deal with something very very serious. I'm just sorry we were to stupid and immature to respond like we should have. You have every right to rant, yell, be angry or sad or happy. It's understandable. |
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Post by Fuckingperfect on Mar 16, 2018 21:02:41 GMT
No actually, neither of them came from you, but I did ss a few of yours which I found offensive, but like you said, you had no clue what was going on and I don't blame you for being worried. The ones I posted came from the French Anna. Her comments were really rude, and I've yet to share the worst comments. You're forgiven. <3 I find it way harder forgiving myself. That's the hardest part. I probably was a bit harsh towards you guys with my comments, I know that. I wrote it whilst bawling my eyes out, I wasn't thinking clear. hey, you're not being overly sensitive. You're trying to deal with something very very serious. I'm just sorry we were to stupid and immature to respond like we should have. You have every right to rant, yell, be angry or sad or happy. It's understandable. Thank you, and your appologies are accepted. <3 I really wish to move on, and put this shit behind me because I've spent way too much time already worrying and actually being annoyed by the fact that nobody deleted my posts. Like, why ban me, just to leave my humiliating posts behind?! Lets hope an admin comes around on PP to delete my posts from 2014 so I don't keep getting reminded, and hopefully they'll check their email and maybe even unban me. Banning me was the only right decision, and I'm glad SA did, but I am sad and disappointed that my posts are still up and I have a feeling I might've said something that offended P!nk. If so, she must think I'm one hell of a whackjob whom everybody should stay away from. I know she's a lurker, and that got me worried. Damnit. I wish I could rewind time and undo the damage. |
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Post by Dani on Mar 16, 2018 21:07:38 GMT
hey, you're not being overly sensitive. You're trying to deal with something very very serious. I'm just sorry we were to stupid and immature to respond like we should have. You have every right to rant, yell, be angry or sad or happy. It's understandable. Thank you, and your appologies are accepted. <3 I really wish to move on, and put this shit behind me because I've spent way too much time already worrying and actually being annoyed by the fact that nobody deleted my posts. Like, why ban me, just to leave my humiliating posts behind?! Lets hope an admin comes around on PP to delete my posts from 2014 so I don't keep getting reminded, and hopefully they'll check their email and maybe even unban me. Banning me was the only right decision, and I'm glad SA did, but I am sad and disappointed that my posts are still up and I have a feeling I might've said something that offended P!nk. If so, she must think I'm one hell of a whackjob whom everybody should stay away from. I know she's a lurker, and that got me worried. Damnit. I wish I could rewind time and undo the damage. You did and it was very bad but it's done and it's happened and it's over and leave it. Even if she saw it, she's probably forgot about it ages ago. |
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Post by ninxpinkness on Mar 16, 2018 21:07:42 GMT
I think I'll never be over sleep deprivation. No matter how much I try, I'm always feeling tired physically and mentally. I remember feeling good, once. Not sleepy at all. hahaha But that was years ago. My general fatigue is something I've learned to just ignore. oh man i feel you. I haven't slept during the night for months, and I usually get 3-4 hours of "sleep". It's so annoying, I can't sleep because I overthink sh*t, but then I also start stressing about not sleeping.  |
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Post by ninxpinkness on Mar 16, 2018 21:25:38 GMT
hey, you're not being overly sensitive. You're trying to deal with something very very serious. I'm just sorry we were to stupid and immature to respond like we should have. You have every right to rant, yell, be angry or sad or happy. It's understandable. Thank you, and your appologies are accepted. <3 I really wish to move on, and put this shit behind me because I've spent way too much time already worrying and actually being annoyed by the fact that nobody deleted my posts. Like, why ban me, just to leave my humiliating posts behind?! Lets hope an admin comes around on PP to delete my posts from 2014 so I don't keep getting reminded, and hopefully they'll check their email and maybe even unban me. Banning me was the only right decision, and I'm glad SA did, but I am sad and disappointed that my posts are still up and I have a feeling I might've said something that offended P!nk. If so, she must think I'm one hell of a whackjob whom everybody should stay away from. I know she's a lurker, and that got me worried. Damnit. I wish I could rewind time and undo the damage.  Maren, I wasn't there to witness it, but I've heard what happened. I just want you to know that we support you and what you're going through (or what you've already gone through) really is no joke. There's no point in rewinding and deleting, it doesn't work. Which is why I'm adding this Lion King quote. Just take some time and work through it, you can do this! |
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