Oh for God's sake now I know why P!nk wanted to name Funhouse 'Heartbreak Is A Motherf***er'. Every freakin' word she's singing on that goddamn record is exactly how I feel - word by word. It is quite scary to be honest, even the tiniest details.
It has been more than 2 months now since it's over but I have really hard time pulling myself out of the rabbit hole where I fell. There are moments when I'm up but I need constant focus and strength not to fall back but sometimes I just let go and try to find comfort in memories. It's getting better slowly, but literally out of the blue my brain just goes "Nope, you're not out yet, let me drag you back. You're welcome".