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Post by heehawes on Feb 6, 2019 22:46:55 GMT
My emotions are usually waves.
Right now the waters are pretty calm.
I dunno how to deal with that.
Its not bad, its not good - It just is.
I think I deal better w/ the waves to be honest.
I like feeling lots - and right now its kinda "blehhh".
Thats the inner personal stuff.
I've been emotional about outside stuff: Larry and being here in LA and all thats, and being excited for summer
But me personally lately is just _______.
🤷🏻♀️
Hows are you?
How do you feel about how you're feeling?
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Post by Dani on Feb 7, 2019 10:19:35 GMT
My emotions are usually waves. Right now the waters are pretty calm. I dunno how to deal with that. Its not bad, its not good - It just is. I think I deal better w/ the waves to be honest. I like feeling lots - and right now its kinda "blehhh". Thats the inner personal stuff. I've been emotional about outside stuff: Larry and being here in LA and all thats, and being excited for summer But me personally lately is just _______. 🤷🏻♀️ Hows are you? How do you feel about how you're feeling? I always think I'm sick when them waters are calm=as in "normal" if you'd ask other people how they'd describe it, and sick= as in like depressed or something but not miserable or crying  Can't explain it, but too long absence of the "extremes" make me uncomfortable with what should be comfortable. Not sure any of this made sense or if I make sense but I think I understand you:haha:  I'm good today. I feel a bit sick but I'm trying to get through a work day anyway. Loads of meetings I shouldn't miss. I haven't really felt how my feelings are doing, work distracts me very well with them most of times. I guess I can tell you tonight when I'll be awake until or wake up 4 am again |
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Post by Dani on Feb 7, 2019 19:43:47 GMT
Ok I'm back with my feelings. Why do they sometimes feel like they're a separate part from me? When they are a part of me? Maybe someone knows what I'm saying? It's like me and "them feelings" even if I know they are me. It's weird. I like feelings and I like to feel and I get along the best with people who are similar to me too. I do get along pretty well with very opposites too, because I can just be and they like someone who can give them a push and take initiative and that is a bit uhmmm lively. My feelings have a hard time with people that are not clear with their feelings towards things that we have in common or towards me. I think them people are a bit hard to deal with, I accept our differences and I can still like them, but I find them pretty hard and hard to me means not much patience to focus on them because I'm not getting anywhere. I like it to just be, and not to feel like I said something and I have to think 20 minutes if it was misunderstood some way. And then feel like I probably was misunderstood and have to explain myself what I mean and that I didn't mean it in any other way. Them situations can sometimes give me a fat rock in my stomach, but I rarely ever explain myself, I just try to feel it out and sense if it's smooth still. If it's not then I might kinda wanna talk about it Also, I'd say my feelings are pretty ------------------------ stable compared to what they were. But my energy is not really stable or predictable. It's like someone pinches me in my butt from nowhere and I can get up do shit at any times, sometimes in the middle of the night literally. Other times it feels like someone hit me in the head with an iron and I passed out but I'm awake existing. Also, I noticed in relationships I love hard. But if I'm with someone opposite to me I'll do shit to wake the fuck out of the relationship, not something disrespectful but the person would probably not have one calm week. If i'm with someone like me, I take the passive position and am the calm teasing one kinda laughing at the picking fights because I know what they are doing It's fun how we work different with different people. Hmmm.. there. I donno which one is feelings/me/energy/whatever, but that's how I am I guess. Don't be mean |
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Post by heehawes on Feb 7, 2019 21:09:16 GMT
Ok I'm back with my feelings. Why do they sometimes feel like they're a separate part from me? When they are a part of me? Maybe someone knows what I'm saying? It's like me and "them feelings" even if I know they are me. It's weird. I like feelings and I like to feel and I get along the best with people who are similar to me too. I do get along pretty well with very opposites too, because I can just be and they like someone who can give them a push and take initiative and that is a bit uhmmm lively. My feelings have a hard time with people that are not clear with their feelings towards things that we have in common or towards me. I think them people are a bit hard to deal with, I accept our differences and I can still like them, but I find them pretty hard and hard to me means not much patience to focus on them because I'm not getting anywhere. I like it to just be, and not to feel like I said something and I have to think 20 minutes if it was misunderstood some way. And then feel like I probably was misunderstood and have to explain myself what I mean and that I didn't mean it in any other way. Them situations can sometimes give me a fat rock in my stomach, but I rarely ever explain myself, I just try to feel it out and sense if it's smooth still. If it's not then I might kinda wanna talk about it Also, I'd say my feelings are pretty ------------------------ stable compared to what they were. But my energy is not really stable or predictable. It's like someone pinches me in my butt from nowhere and I can get up do shit at any times, sometimes in the middle of the night literally. Other times it feels like someone hit me in the head with an iron and I passed out but I'm awake existing. Also, I noticed in relationships I love hard. But if I'm with someone opposite to me I'll do shit to wake the fuck out of the relationship, not something disrespectful but the person would probably not have one calm week. If i'm with someone like me, I take the passive position and am the calm teasing one kinda laughing at the picking fights because I know what they are doing It's fun how we work different with different people. Hmmm.. there. I donno which one is feelings/me/energy/whatever, but that's how I am I guess. Don't be mean I get what youre saying I think... about feeling separeted from your feelings. I feel that way a lot too. I dunno - its all probably about balance, which I why I think opposites can be nice - you gets a dofferent look on things. I always kinda wonder how the whole world seems to hold it all together. I'm also proud of myself though for pretty much avoiding complete melt downs (almost sometimes kind 😬). One step at a time, one day at a time. Lifes short, enjoy it. and thats just me talking to myself, you seem to be enjoying life so much and I love that. *insert happy facebook sticker face.* |
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Post by Dani on Feb 7, 2019 21:41:12 GMT
Ok I'm back with my feelings. Why do they sometimes feel like they're a separate part from me? When they are a part of me? Maybe someone knows what I'm saying? It's like me and "them feelings" even if I know they are me. It's weird. I like feelings and I like to feel and I get along the best with people who are similar to me too. I do get along pretty well with very opposites too, because I can just be and they like someone who can give them a push and take initiative and that is a bit uhmmm lively. My feelings have a hard time with people that are not clear with their feelings towards things that we have in common or towards me. I think them people are a bit hard to deal with, I accept our differences and I can still like them, but I find them pretty hard and hard to me means not much patience to focus on them because I'm not getting anywhere. I like it to just be, and not to feel like I said something and I have to think 20 minutes if it was misunderstood some way. And then feel like I probably was misunderstood and have to explain myself what I mean and that I didn't mean it in any other way. Them situations can sometimes give me a fat rock in my stomach, but I rarely ever explain myself, I just try to feel it out and sense if it's smooth still. If it's not then I might kinda wanna talk about it Also, I'd say my feelings are pretty ------------------------ stable compared to what they were. But my energy is not really stable or predictable. It's like someone pinches me in my butt from nowhere and I can get up do shit at any times, sometimes in the middle of the night literally. Other times it feels like someone hit me in the head with an iron and I passed out but I'm awake existing. Also, I noticed in relationships I love hard. But if I'm with someone opposite to me I'll do shit to wake the fuck out of the relationship, not something disrespectful but the person would probably not have one calm week. If i'm with someone like me, I take the passive position and am the calm teasing one kinda laughing at the picking fights because I know what they are doing It's fun how we work different with different people. Hmmm.. there. I donno which one is feelings/me/energy/whatever, but that's how I am I guess. Don't be mean I get what youre saying I think... about feeling separeted from your feelings. I feel that way a lot too. I dunno - its all probably about balance, which I why I think opposites can be nice - you gets a dofferent look on things. I always kinda wonder how the whole world seems to hold it all together. I'm also proud of myself though for pretty much avoiding complete melt downs (almost sometimes kind 😬). One step at a time, one day at a time. Lifes short, enjoy it. and thats just me talking to myself, you seem to be enjoying life so much and I love that. *insert happy facebook sticker face.* I donno if it's because we're aware of them feelings? I've been thinking it must be like that. I'm not letting them take over me. Well, not anymore at least.  So I guess maybe it's that? Don't let me get meeeee oh yea Yeah I wonder too. And I also always wonder how people can live such boring lives they are living (and with this I mean really fucking boring and not just chill, lazy and grateful family life, just boring/giving up kinda stuff). Sometimes I do envy them because I'm always on a hunt, but it's just sometimes. I'll say I'm happy and enjoy life, but I am very very careful about my feelings, especially when it comes to love life. Before I could just feel it and go for it, but now I'm not just feeling it, there's so much more than that. However, I've noticed that it's hard to remaind happy and bubbly when you end up in situations where people surprise you on and on, and kinda diminish your light. It's hard to get that full glow back even if it's there. I understand why most people our age and older seem numb and not as happy and as empathic as kids. I always thought whatever happens to me I will not let it put my light out, never ever ever. I'd say that's the biggest work I ever done in my life, even compared to relationships. |
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Post by Fuckingperfect on Feb 9, 2019 19:45:45 GMT
I feel low. Like, really really low. Like I'm falling down an never ending dark spiral of hopelessness. No hope. My mood is black and my soul is crying black tears. I don't even know how I managed to hold on for so long. I feel like I'm past due. I'm living on time that's not mine. Idk. Sorry. I'm just in a very dark place, where beams of light struggle hard to get to me.
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Post by heehawes on Mar 3, 2019 10:57:59 GMT
I feel calm.
☹️
😳
😑
I also feel a little bummed out.
not like straight up sad.
but my heart feels low in my gut....
like its just chilling there, with his head down, hes not broken, but hes tired / worn out. 🤷🏻♀️
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Post by cpf on Mar 4, 2019 17:05:36 GMT
Just got home.. feel like crawling into my bed and hope this day ends asap.. but probably will wake up to another fckd up day
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Post by Dani on Mar 4, 2019 17:30:35 GMT
I feel good compared to this weeekend jeeesushhhh what a low low.
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Post by heehawes on Mar 5, 2019 22:03:56 GMT
I feel good compared to this weeekend jeeesushhhh what a low low. good. I'm glad you're starting to feel better.. keep it moving in that direction. <3 |
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Post by Dani on Mar 6, 2019 10:26:05 GMT
HUNGRYYYYY
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Post by cpf on Mar 6, 2019 11:29:37 GMT
Lunchbreak walk through the park in the rain.. Pink out loud in my ears.. me moment
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Post by Dani on Mar 6, 2019 12:36:28 GMT
FULLLLLL I want a nap |
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Post by drnick on Mar 6, 2019 12:39:15 GMT
FULLLLLL I want a nap  |
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Post by Dani on Mar 6, 2019 12:39:57 GMT
FULLLLLL I want a nap Nawwwww that tail |
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Can't explain it, but too long absence of the "extremes" make me uncomfortable with what should be comfortable. Not sure any of this made sense or if I make sense but I think I understand you:haha: 
So I guess maybe it's that? Don't let me get meeeee oh yea 
