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Post by Dani on Jun 19, 2018 9:17:41 GMT
Iv been eating and drinking like a fat piece of sh.t lately. Can't wait to finish my exams so I can get back on track You’re not alone 😑 |
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Post by alrightsir on Jun 19, 2018 12:22:53 GMT
Threesome idea?    I remember you telling this before too, because when I read it it was like it was about my last relationship, with all the trust issues (for no reason!), and the "glued together" thing. I think there's deeper things than him finding himself and working on it himself and understanding how a healthy relationship should be. It could be validation that he never got from a parent that he need to work out with together with a therapist. I donno?  How old is he? I didn't mean it came off that you didn't care about yourself, I think it takes a lot of strength and courage to take someone else under your wings like we both did/are doing with these partners. I have no doubt in that you are strong and have a healthy way of thinking. I meant more like, the next level, you want someone to bring out the best in you, to lift you up, to care about you, to listen to you, to ask about your needs, listen to your dreams, to be there for you when you cry or are struggling, etc. To ask yourself what you need and to just reflect upon if he actually gives you that  Haha yeah...it's something I would love to do with him. The other chance is me becoming Sense8 so I can have them all I want 😶😏 I totally agree with you tho. I would NEVER do it again. If there's gonna be a next time I don't really care about anything but be happy in your own skin and have normal amount of self esteem. I don't want my relationship be my job I never applied for. I was his therapist and now it's all good, so yay for me! He's 28 now but more immature on the inside. He has this honesty and pure joy which children have, that's the positive and negative side of him too. So how did it end for you? Why did it? |
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Post by Dani on Jun 19, 2018 13:38:20 GMT
Threesome idea? I remember you telling this before too, because when I read it it was like it was about my last relationship, with all the trust issues (for no reason!), and the "glued together" thing. I think there's deeper things than him finding himself and working on it himself and understanding how a healthy relationship should be. It could be validation that he never got from a parent that he need to work out with together with a therapist. I donno? How old is he? I didn't mean it came off that you didn't care about yourself, I think it takes a lot of strength and courage to take someone else under your wings like we both did/are doing with these partners. I have no doubt in that you are strong and have a healthy way of thinking. I meant more like, the next level, you want someone to bring out the best in you, to lift you up, to care about you, to listen to you, to ask about your needs, listen to your dreams, to be there for you when you cry or are struggling, etc. To ask yourself what you need and to just reflect upon if he actually gives you that Haha yeah...it's something I would love to do with him. The other chance is me becoming Sense8 so I can have them all I want 😶😏 I totally agree with you tho. I would NEVER do it again. If there's gonna be a next time I don't really care about anything but be happy in your own skin and have normal amount of self esteem. I don't want my relationship be my job I never applied for. I was his therapist and now it's all good, so yay for me! He's 28 now but more immature on the inside. He has this honesty and pure joy which children have, that's the positive and negative side of him too. So how did it end for you? Why did it? Maybe one day he'll be up for it if you're persistent  Exactly. Happy, relaxed and safe. We're getting too old for too much drama, walking on egg shells and parenting a grownup. I like the honesty, joy and a child side of a person but one of the most annoying things I know is when you're having a serious conversation and they bring that side out. If it's used in the right moments it's amazing. It ended with me finding out that he had been cheating on me basically our whole relationship because he couldn't handle his low esteem any other way. I have no proof of him sleeping with anyone else and I don't care, but he went behind my back way too many times and was dishonest and manipulative constantly brining me up to the skies. Tbh, I felt like he fed off my feelings and the validation (although I gave it to him only when he didn't ask for it), and when I couldn't give him that if I was away or mad, he had to get it some other way (by cheating). I guess that's what I felt like our relationship was about most of the time, him feeding off me. I mean we had so much fun too and we were happy and steady for some time back and forth. That's when I felt like being high on life and just having a suuuuper amazing time, I guess that's what kept me going. But the highs feel so high just because the lows are so low and too many. That's the short story of it, but I could write a whole book if I started. Thinking of it - maybe I should  |
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Post by cpf on Jun 20, 2018 4:26:18 GMT
Yesterday was a bad day.. gave too much of myself away.. so much that there wasnt enough left for me... needed her but too scared to reach out as i didnt want her to defend others like she did earlier and not listen to my feelings
Ahwell.. new day today.. first day of new job!
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Post by heehawes on Jun 20, 2018 5:44:13 GMT
That’s the right way to look at things / always good to remember. And good luck at the new job. :] sorry today was a bad one though  <3 sent your way. |
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Post by cpf on Jun 20, 2018 5:53:27 GMT
That’s the right way to look at things / always good to remember. And good luck at the new job. :] sorry today was a bad one though <3 sent your way. <3 thank you |
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Post by alrightsir on Jun 20, 2018 9:04:42 GMT
Haha yeah...it's something I would love to do with him. The other chance is me becoming Sense8 so I can have them all I want 😶😏 I totally agree with you tho. I would NEVER do it again. If there's gonna be a next time I don't really care about anything but be happy in your own skin and have normal amount of self esteem. I don't want my relationship be my job I never applied for. I was his therapist and now it's all good, so yay for me! He's 28 now but more immature on the inside. He has this honesty and pure joy which children have, that's the positive and negative side of him too. So how did it end for you? Why did it? Maybe one day he'll be up for it if you're persistent Exactly. Happy, relaxed and safe. We're getting too old for too much drama, walking on egg shells and parenting a grownup. I like the honesty, joy and a child side of a person but one of the most annoying things I know is when you're having a serious conversation and they bring that side out. If it's used in the right moments it's amazing. It ended with me finding out that he had been cheating on me basically our whole relationship because he couldn't handle his low esteem any other way. I have no proof of him sleeping with anyone else and I don't care, but he went behind my back way too many times and was dishonest and manipulative constantly brining me up to the skies. Tbh, I felt like he fed off my feelings and the validation (although I gave it to him only when he didn't ask for it), and when I couldn't give him that if I was away or mad, he had to get it some other way (by cheating). I guess that's what I felt like our relationship was about most of the time, him feeding off me. I mean we had so much fun too and we were happy and steady for some time back and forth. That's when I felt like being high on life and just having a suuuuper amazing time, I guess that's what kept me going. But the highs feel so high just because the lows are so low and too many. That's the short story of it, but I could write a whole book if I started. Thinking of it - maybe I should That's my plan Oh yeah...something chill and relaxed is what we need. Although I tend to think that sometimes I love a little bit of argument because after the reconciliation feels so good! haha Wow that sucks so much. I'm glad it become clear what he was doing and now you're better without him. I hope one day he will be able to come on terms with himself and act conciously. |
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Post by Dani on Jun 20, 2018 9:30:09 GMT
Maybe one day he'll be up for it if you're persistent Exactly. Happy, relaxed and safe. We're getting too old for too much drama, walking on egg shells and parenting a grownup. I like the honesty, joy and a child side of a person but one of the most annoying things I know is when you're having a serious conversation and they bring that side out. If it's used in the right moments it's amazing. It ended with me finding out that he had been cheating on me basically our whole relationship because he couldn't handle his low esteem any other way. I have no proof of him sleeping with anyone else and I don't care, but he went behind my back way too many times and was dishonest and manipulative constantly brining me up to the skies. Tbh, I felt like he fed off my feelings and the validation (although I gave it to him only when he didn't ask for it), and when I couldn't give him that if I was away or mad, he had to get it some other way (by cheating). I guess that's what I felt like our relationship was about most of the time, him feeding off me. I mean we had so much fun too and we were happy and steady for some time back and forth. That's when I felt like being high on life and just having a suuuuper amazing time, I guess that's what kept me going. But the highs feel so high just because the lows are so low and too many. That's the short story of it, but I could write a whole book if I started. Thinking of it - maybe I should That's my plan Oh yeah...something chill and relaxed is what we need. Although I tend to think that sometimes I love a little bit of argument because after the reconciliation feels so good! haha Wow that sucks so much. I'm glad it become clear what he was doing and now you're better without him. I hope one day he will be able to come on terms with himself and act conciously. Yeah, of course some tension is good. It's sexy  I know I'd get bored as fuck if someone couldn't disagree with me, or tell me off or want things the other way than I sometimes. It sucked because it did feel real for more reasons. But he did everything to have a life with me, he knew what to say and do to get what he wanted. An I'm not even THAT predictable, so imagine how good he was However, he will never change. I've chatted with his ex, who knows his previous ex, and I've met his ex he has children with and she kinda hinted about it but since she wants to be on good terms with him because of the kids I can see why she kept herself out. He's been doing the same thing to all of us. I hope one day he can accept his problem, and his way of wanting to live a life, and be honest about it, so the other person either knows or lives in an equally open relationship that he does. |
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Post by cpf on Jun 22, 2018 20:19:43 GMT
I really miss and need some pet love... would love to get a pet but dont want it to be home alone all the time..
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Post by heehawes on Jun 22, 2018 20:24:14 GMT
I really miss and need some pet love... would love to get a pet but dont want it to be home alone all the time.. I was JUST talking to my friend about this like 10min ago.... uggghhhhhh 💔 |
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Post by purple18 on Jun 28, 2018 14:18:47 GMT
I really miss and need some pet love... would love to get a pet but dont want it to be home alone all the time.. do itttt, get a pet! a cuddly one preferably so much love! |
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Sticks and stones, they may break these bones But then I'll be ready, are you ready?
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Post by valerio23 on Jun 29, 2018 21:50:11 GMT
I want to confess something to you guys.
I'm kinda nervous about the surgery of my sister.
She'll get her surgery on Tuesday (July, 3).
I'm scared, and no one knows that. No one sees how much I'm scared. That's because I use a mask in that moment (or something like that), I smile, but inside I'm not a smiling person... I just... I don't wanna lose her and I completely freaking out about that right now.
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Post by Dani on Jun 30, 2018 10:57:22 GMT
I want to confess something to you guys. I'm kinda nervous about the surgery of my sister. She'll get her surgery on Tuesday (July, 3). I'm scared, and no one knows that. No one sees how much I'm scared. That's because I use a mask in that moment (or something like that), I smile, but inside I'm not a smiling person... I just... I don't wanna lose her and I completely freaking out about that right now. I don’t think it’s weird that you are worried. And I don’t see a reason that you have to hide it or cover it up with smiles. Unless you mean you’re hiding it from her to not make her more scared that she already is? What kind of surgery is it? Sounds like it could be something complicated. My mom had a (minor) heart surgery and I felt like puking during the whole time I was in hospital with her. I too hid my worries from her but I talked to the doctors and they’ve been doing that stuff 1000000000 times. So that’s a tip for you, if you want to lower your stress levels about it. They’re pros and I’m sure she’s in good hands 💕 |
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Post by valerio23 on Jun 30, 2018 15:20:36 GMT
I want to confess something to you guys. I'm kinda nervous about the surgery of my sister. She'll get her surgery on Tuesday (July, 3). I'm scared, and no one knows that. No one sees how much I'm scared. That's because I use a mask in that moment (or something like that), I smile, but inside I'm not a smiling person... I just... I don't wanna lose her and I completely freaking out about that right now. I don’t think it’s weird that you are worried. And I don’t see a reason that you have to hide it or cover it up with smiles. Unless you mean you’re hiding it from her to not make her more scared that she already is? What kind of surgery is it? Sounds like it could be something complicated. My mom had a (minor) heart surgery and I felt like puking during the whole time I was in hospital with her. I too hid my worries from her but I talked to the doctors and they’ve been doing that stuff 1000000000 times. So that’s a tip for you, if you want to lower your stress levels about it. They’re pros and I’m sure she’s in good hands 💕 Yeah, I cover all my fear for her, when I'm with her. She must put a gastric bypass, She's nervous about it, even if she know that her doctors are good. So, in the end, I do my best to make her smile and to don't show my fears to her. I know that the doctors are good but like you say it's normal to worry, especially because our relationship it's so much strength and I'm always worried about her. And thank you so much Dani 💕 |
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Post by Dani on Jul 2, 2018 14:27:05 GMT
I confess I’m probably 80% lesbian and 20% straight. There’s always so much drama with guys it makes me disgusted 🤮🔫 How much excessive energy do they have to waste on bullshit?
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How old is he? 
I know I'd get bored as fuck if someone couldn't disagree with me, or tell me off or want things the other way than I sometimes.
