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Post by Dani on May 9, 2018 10:51:15 GMT
Everything. Just fed up... I dunno. awww no. we all have these kind of days. just make sure you think of some positive things... your awesome P!nk costume for example... the upcoming trip... it's gonna be fun and it's soon!  Hug? Tbh, I understand him, this whole ticket sale thing was a real turnoff. We were really excited for this trip and the tour but none of us is that much anymore. I'm sure it will change after a few days, but it really is a mood killer. |
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Post by purple18 on May 9, 2018 11:11:56 GMT
awww no. we all have these kind of days. just make sure you think of some positive things... your awesome P!nk costume for example... the upcoming trip... it's gonna be fun and it's soon! Hug? Tbh, I understand him, this whole ticket sale thing was a real turnoff. We were really excited for this trip and the tour but none of us is that much anymore. I'm sure it will change after a few days, but it really is a mood killer. i know guys. even if i am just watching from a distance because i can absolutely cannot afford even a trip, (let alone the tickets bahahah) it is frustrating to see how much everyone struggles with all this. it's really shitty especially if you think back at how much tickets cost way back when she wasn't so big. i don't really know if it is really because she is bigger now but the whole system is fucked up and we cannot do anything about it sadly  but you do need to be happy that you get to see her so soon at least be happy thinking about the ones who cannot do it this time! know that not seeing her at all is always worse than seeing her in any shitty conditions  |
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Post by heehawes on May 9, 2018 11:34:52 GMT
It’s really not all about tour.
It’s me picking things apart.
Right now I feel like I don’t like people (for multiple reasons)
Then I feel like a shit person because of that....
Then I dislike like myself.
Then I dislike everything.
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Post by purple18 on May 9, 2018 11:54:48 GMT
It’s really not all about tour. It’s me picking things apart. Right now I feel like I don’t like people (for multiple reasons) Then I feel like a shit person because of that.... Then I dislike like myself. Then I dislike everything. people suck. i don't like people either. with a few exceptions. but that is no reason to dislike yourself  |
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Post by Dani on May 9, 2018 12:13:00 GMT
It’s really not all about tour. It’s me picking things apart. Right now I feel like I don’t like people (for multiple reasons) Then I feel like a shit person because of that.... Then I dislike like myself. Then I dislike everything. Okay, that's not how I understood your messages on messenger. What happened? Who did what shit to you? |
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Post by buffy on May 9, 2018 17:54:17 GMT
Not putting on sunscreen this morning wasn't the smartest move ... 😕
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Post by Fuckingperfect on May 9, 2018 18:11:51 GMT
I wasn't fishing for compliments. I'm ugly from the inside and out. There's no point in finding peace anywhere with myself, or let alone embrace anything, as there is nothing to embrace. I totally know how you feel ... And it may sound cheesy but I guess Dia and Dani are right ... I have a hard time looking at myself also. Or being/living with myself. But we indeed have to embrace the freak that's within us ... You were right about Diana and Dani being right, and you are absolutely right as well. I had a terrible breakdown yesterday, I can't remember the last time I felt this way. But I managed to snap out of it after some time, and I took your advice and ended up embracing my inner freak, so I got just the inspiration I needed for the selfie project I had going on. I posted a picture of it a few weeks ago; I dyed my armpit hair pink and I realised it needed a touch up, so I dyed it again last night. I dunno what it is, but my pink armpits make me happy. 😂 I'm sorry to hear you're feeling this way too, it can be so time consuming, and last but not least, by feeling this way about ourselves certainly isn't making it any easier to climb up from the dark. Many hugs coming your way ❤️ |
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Post by Fuckingperfect on May 9, 2018 18:24:41 GMT
I wasn't fishing for compliments. I'm ugly from the inside and out. There's no point in finding peace anywhere with myself, or let alone embrace anything, as there is nothing to embrace. Stop it. I have shitty days/weeks/months too, and it's because I can't stop thinking/looking at parts of me that I hate/find ugly/whatever. But shifting focus on what I like about myself makes them other parts unnoticable. It's like looking back on old pics and thinking oh my god what was that...... you didn't see it then but you see it now because you are looking with different eyes. You KNOW you have parts about yourself that you like a little more than others! Focus on them, and only on them, lift them, feel proud about them, and I promise you, there will be a change in how you see your other less "perfect" parts <3 I honestly have no idea why yesterday was so extreme (I guess there were multiple factors and it got too overwhelming), I had the worst breakdown for as long as I can remember, I totally lost it last night. And when I'm in that state of mind, every positive word or effort to cheer me up won't work; it just bounces right off. But looking back with new eyes on the situation, I do know I have some parts of me that I really love, but right there and then my eyes get some kind of filter that makes everything about me look hideous. I talked about this with one of the nurses, and apparently it is very common when the self image is close to non existent. When this lack of healthy and good self image gets prolonged (in my case several years ) , it does something with the brain chemistry, and neural pathways in the brain. So I need to work on creating new paths by focusing on the positive, even if it seems impossible. I like my eyes for one, but I'm totally in love with my pink armpit hair atm. 🙊 Thank you for your support, I really appreciate your patience with me. And that goes for each and every one of you guys ❤️ |
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Post by buffy on May 9, 2018 18:25:07 GMT
I totally know how you feel ... And it may sound cheesy but I guess Dia and Dani are right ... I have a hard time looking at myself also. Or being/living with myself. But we indeed have to embrace the freak that's within us ... You were right about Diana and Dani being right, and you are absolutely right as well. I had a terrible breakdown yesterday, I can't remember the last time I felt this way. But I managed to snap out of it after some time, and I took your advice and ended up embracing my inner freak, so I got just the inspiration I needed for the selfie project I had going on. I posted a picture of it a few weeks ago; I dyed my armpit hair pink and I realised it needed a touch up, so I dyed it again last night. I dunno what it is, but my pink armpits make me happy. 😂 I'm sorry to hear you're feeling this way too, it can be so time consuming, and last but not least, by feeling this way about ourselves certainly isn't making it any easier to climb up from the dark. Many hugs coming your way ❤️ I'm happy you're feeling better. BTW, I need to look up that pic. 😊 I'll be doing fine in the end though. I have an awesome bf who helps me with my inner struggles. Thnx, many hugs to you too ❤️ |
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Post by Dani on May 9, 2018 18:38:38 GMT
Oh no she did not.
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Post by Dani on May 9, 2018 18:42:33 GMT
Stop it. I have shitty days/weeks/months too, and it's because I can't stop thinking/looking at parts of me that I hate/find ugly/whatever. But shifting focus on what I like about myself makes them other parts unnoticable. It's like looking back on old pics and thinking oh my god what was that...... you didn't see it then but you see it now because you are looking with different eyes. You KNOW you have parts about yourself that you like a little more than others! Focus on them, and only on them, lift them, feel proud about them, and I promise you, there will be a change in how you see your other less "perfect" parts <3 I honestly have no idea why yesterday was so extreme (I guess there were multiple factors and it got too overwhelming), I had the worst breakdown for as long as I can remember, I totally lost it last night. And when I'm in that state of mind, every positive word or effort to cheer me up won't work; it just bounces right off. But looking back with new eyes on the situation, I do know I have some parts of me that I really love, but right there and then my eyes get some kind of filter that makes everything about me look hideous. I talked about this with one of the nurses, and apparently it is very common when the self image is close to non existent. When this lack of healthy and good self image gets prolonged (in my case several years ) , it does something with the brain chemistry, and neural pathways in the brain. So I need to work on creating new paths by focusing on the positive, even if it seems impossible. I like my eyes for one, but I'm totally in love with my pink armpit hair atm. 🙊 Thank you for your support, I really appreciate your patience with me. And that goes for each and every one of you guys ❤️ I mean come ooon. We all know you had that super model as look-a-like. The only one I ever heard I ever looked like was this girl I saw at the store today. We just kept looking at each other when we saw eachother, it was more like ok I know you from somewhere except we didn't. My friend was like OMG YOU LOOK THE SAME and she said it out loud in front of her and me and her just laughed out loud at the same time. However, you resembled a supermodel, that says something. And totally OK to have shitty days. We all do. Just don't look too much into it if it doesn't last way too long <3 |
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Post by Fuckingperfect on May 9, 2018 19:46:10 GMT
You were right about Diana and Dani being right, and you are absolutely right as well. I had a terrible breakdown yesterday, I can't remember the last time I felt this way. But I managed to snap out of it after some time, and I took your advice and ended up embracing my inner freak, so I got just the inspiration I needed for the selfie project I had going on. I posted a picture of it a few weeks ago; I dyed my armpit hair pink and I realised it needed a touch up, so I dyed it again last night. I dunno what it is, but my pink armpits make me happy. 😂 I'm sorry to hear you're feeling this way too, it can be so time consuming, and last but not least, by feeling this way about ourselves certainly isn't making it any easier to climb up from the dark. Many hugs coming your way ❤️ I'm happy you're feeling better. BTW, I need to look up that pic. 😊 I'll be doing fine in the end though. I have an awesome bf who helps me with my inner struggles. Thnx, many hugs to you too ❤️ I'm happy to hear you have a bf who helps you, you are lucky <3 I wish I had that kind of support tbh, but I guess I'll be forever alone, as I've always been. Ugh, now I walk down that path AGAIN. Self devaluation I mean. It's a sensitive and touchy topic for me, seeing as I have never been in a relationship. OH well, moving on. ____________________________________________ I confess I didn't wear a bra at all yesterday, or today. It feels extremely liberating. |
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Post by Dani on May 9, 2018 19:48:10 GMT
I'm happy you're feeling better. BTW, I need to look up that pic. 😊 I'll be doing fine in the end though. I have an awesome bf who helps me with my inner struggles. Thnx, many hugs to you too ❤️ I confess I didn't wear a bra at all yesterday, or today. It feels extremely liberating. I love that. My favorite days are at home wearing only panties dancing around to my favorite music drinking wine and just doing what the fuck I feel like doing. It's what's happening tomorrow. |
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Post by Dani on May 9, 2018 19:56:48 GMT
I use up to three wine glasses everytime I drink wine. It's because I hate em dirty. I don't know anyone else who does this that I've seen. I kinda sneak doing it. But like. I donno. I wish my colleague lived in my city it sucked that she left me drunk and it's this early, you guys Haha. |
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Post by Fuckingperfect on May 9, 2018 20:01:44 GMT
I honestly have no idea why yesterday was so extreme (I guess there were multiple factors and it got too overwhelming), I had the worst breakdown for as long as I can remember, I totally lost it last night. And when I'm in that state of mind, every positive word or effort to cheer me up won't work; it just bounces right off. But looking back with new eyes on the situation, I do know I have some parts of me that I really love, but right there and then my eyes get some kind of filter that makes everything about me look hideous. I talked about this with one of the nurses, and apparently it is very common when the self image is close to non existent. When this lack of healthy and good self image gets prolonged (in my case several years ) , it does something with the brain chemistry, and neural pathways in the brain. So I need to work on creating new paths by focusing on the positive, even if it seems impossible. I like my eyes for one, but I'm totally in love with my pink armpit hair atm. 🙊 Thank you for your support, I really appreciate your patience with me. And that goes for each and every one of you guys ❤️ I mean come ooon. We all know you had that super model as look-a-like. The only one I ever heard I ever looked like was this girl I saw at the store today. We just kept looking at each other when we saw eachother, it was more like ok I know you from somewhere except we didn't. My friend was like OMG YOU LOOK THE SAME and she said it out loud in front of her and me and her just laughed out loud at the same time. However, you resembled a supermodel, that says something. And totally OK to have shitty days. We all do. Just don't look too much into it if it doesn't last way too long <3 Uhm.. I have a super model look a like? I think I remember something vaguely...I had to dig deep inside my brain now, but are you talking about the pic Izzy posted on PP several years ago? I don't know her name though. :/ Haha awwe, I think we all have look alikes I saw something online once, where they had a collage of people finding their lookalike, I couldn't even tell some of them apart, they could fool me for being twins, seriously. None of them were genetically related or anything. Thank you <3 I choose to take one day at a time, so I'm totally over yesterday. |
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