valerio23
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Sticks and stones, they may break these bones But then I'll be ready, are you ready?
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Post by valerio23 on May 8, 2018 17:26:28 GMT
Yep, more time, in this case, will be precious for you sweety  It certainly will. I called today and asked for postponing the deadline; so now my new deadline is Monday 14th, which is good because it enables me to go through my complaint more thoroughly and fill in the necessary info needed to get it approved. Yeah, that's so great! So now you just should use in a good way your time and I'm sure you'll do it. Best wish to you sweety  |
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Post by Fuckingperfect on May 8, 2018 20:16:58 GMT
It certainly will. I called today and asked for postponing the deadline; so now my new deadline is Monday 14th, which is good because it enables me to go through my complaint more thoroughly and fill in the necessary info needed to get it approved. Yeah, that's so great! So now you just should use in a good way your time and I'm sure you'll do it. Best wish to you sweety Thank you! |
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Post by Fuckingperfect on May 8, 2018 20:21:53 GMT
I swear the longer I look at my self, and more selfies I attempt of, the uglier I look. There's a reason why I can count on one hand the amount of selfies I've taken the past four years. Hence also the reason why I never post photos of myself anymore. I look hideous. I wish I could rip my face off, honestly. I am the ugliest person alive on this planet.
And now I'm crying. This is fucking ridiculous. Why do I even bother.
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Post by purple18 on May 8, 2018 20:28:43 GMT
I swear the longer I look at my self, and more selfies I attempt of, the uglier I look. There's a reason why I can count on one hand the amount of selfies I've taken the past four years. Hence also the reason why I never post photos of myself anymore. I look hideous. I wish I could rip my face off, honestly. I am the ugliest person alive on this planet. And now I'm crying. This is fucking ridiculous. Why do I even bother. awww no. You should never feel this way, it can't be further from the truth. You are beautiful babe. Every person can find flaws on themselves if they look for them and for a long time. And we are all imperfect. Inner beauty is what makes a person really beautiful. So you should find peace with yourself and embrace yourself the way you are <3 |
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Post by Fuckingperfect on May 8, 2018 20:53:43 GMT
I swear the longer I look at my self, and more selfies I attempt of, the uglier I look. There's a reason why I can count on one hand the amount of selfies I've taken the past four years. Hence also the reason why I never post photos of myself anymore. I look hideous. I wish I could rip my face off, honestly. I am the ugliest person alive on this planet. And now I'm crying. This is fucking ridiculous. Why do I even bother. awww no. You should never feel this way, it can't be further from the truth. You are beautiful babe. Every person can find flaws on themselves if they look for them and for a long time. And we are all imperfect. Inner beauty is what makes a person really beautiful. So you should find peace with yourself and embrace yourself the way you are <3 I wasn't fishing for compliments. I'm ugly from the inside and out. There's no point in finding peace anywhere with myself, or let alone embrace anything, as there is nothing to embrace. |
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Post by Dani on May 8, 2018 20:59:08 GMT
awww no. You should never feel this way, it can't be further from the truth. You are beautiful babe. Every person can find flaws on themselves if they look for them and for a long time. And we are all imperfect. Inner beauty is what makes a person really beautiful. So you should find peace with yourself and embrace yourself the way you are <3 I wasn't fishing for compliments. I'm ugly from the inside and out. There's no point in finding peace anywhere with myself, or let alone embrace anything, as there is nothing to embrace. Stop it. I have shitty days/weeks/months too, and it's because I can't stop thinking/looking at parts of me that I hate/find ugly/whatever. But shifting focus on what I like about myself makes them other parts unnoticable. It's like looking back on old pics and thinking oh my god what was that...... you didn't see it then but you see it now because you are looking with different eyes. You KNOW you have parts about yourself that you like a little more than others! Focus on them, and only on them, lift them, feel proud about them, and I promise you, there will be a change in how you see your other less "perfect" parts <3 |
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Post by buffy on May 8, 2018 21:26:35 GMT
awww no. You should never feel this way, it can't be further from the truth. You are beautiful babe. Every person can find flaws on themselves if they look for them and for a long time. And we are all imperfect. Inner beauty is what makes a person really beautiful. So you should find peace with yourself and embrace yourself the way you are <3 I wasn't fishing for compliments. I'm ugly from the inside and out. There's no point in finding peace anywhere with myself, or let alone embrace anything, as there is nothing to embrace. I totally know how you feel ... And it may sound cheesy but I guess Dia and Dani are right ... I have a hard time looking at myself also. Or being/living with myself. But we indeed have to embrace the freak that's within us ... |
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Post by heehawes on May 9, 2018 9:30:03 GMT
Trying hard to be positive, but I don’t think it’s gonna happen today....
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Post by purple18 on May 9, 2018 9:37:37 GMT
awww no. You should never feel this way, it can't be further from the truth. You are beautiful babe. Every person can find flaws on themselves if they look for them and for a long time. And we are all imperfect. Inner beauty is what makes a person really beautiful. So you should find peace with yourself and embrace yourself the way you are <3 I wasn't fishing for compliments. I'm ugly from the inside and out. There's no point in finding peace anywhere with myself, or let alone embrace anything, as there is nothing to embrace. Maren we're all fucked up, believe me. everyone has their own demons and shit they are going through. you can make a choice and live your life according to what the outside world wants to make of you or you can just say fuck that and accept that we all have problems and we all have different personalities and we are each unique and there is indeed a lot of things to embrace in everyone. don't hate yourself sweetie. you can never please every single person so you better concentrate on pleasing yourself. i'm not a champion of self-love either but you gotta find your own peace. |
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Post by purple18 on May 9, 2018 9:37:56 GMT
Trying hard to be positive, but I don’t think it’s gonna happen today.... what what? tickets? or something else? |
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Post by heehawes on May 9, 2018 9:40:51 GMT
Trying hard to be positive, but I don’t think it’s gonna happen today.... what what? tickets? or something else? Everything. Just fed up... I dunno. |
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Post by Danielle on May 9, 2018 9:43:40 GMT
what what? tickets? or something else? Everything. Just fed up... I dunno. Sending love to you and anyone else who needs it today.❤️ |
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Post by purple18 on May 9, 2018 9:44:10 GMT
what what? tickets? or something else? Everything. Just fed up... I dunno. awww no. we all have these kind of days. just make sure you think of some positive things... your awesome P!nk costume for example... the upcoming trip... it's gonna be fun and it's soon! Hug? |
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Post by Dani on May 9, 2018 10:20:50 GMT
Trying hard to be positive, but I don’t think it’s gonna happen today....  |
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Post by Fuckingperfect on May 9, 2018 10:24:17 GMT
I wasn't fishing for compliments. I'm ugly from the inside and out. There's no point in finding peace anywhere with myself, or let alone embrace anything, as there is nothing to embrace. Maren we're all fucked up, believe me. everyone has their own demons and shit they are going through. you can make a choice and live your life according to what the outside world wants to make of you or you can just say fuck that and accept that we all have problems and we all have different personalities and we are each unique and there is indeed a lot of things to embrace in everyone. don't hate yourself sweetie. you can never please every single person so you better concentrate on pleasing yourself. i'm not a champion of self-love either but you gotta find your own peace. I'm sorry Diana, I had a really bad mental breakdown last night. All the stress around everything happening in my life atm; complaint deadline, my doctor not seeing how much my back pain is affecting me and my life, quitting treatment, the stress around getting tickets which kind of is a big deal for me, and more. In general: when so many things are beyond my control, it gets overwhelming and too much for me to handle at the same time, and as a response I become so god damn destructive and give into self devaluation to an extreme I make myself miserable. I don't even understand why I feel, or act this way. I would never say the things I say to myself, to another person, so WHY do I do that to myself? Reading through what I wrote last night, makes me feel sorry for that person, because I know deep down inside I do have qualities I should embrace. When I am in that state of mind like I was last night, no words can get through my filter I've "made" for my self. Though I managed to shake it off after bawling my eyes out in the shower for an hour, and eventually did get the selfie I needed for the other album. I guess you, buffy, and Dani, did some impact on me after all, seeing as I did calm down eventually, and regained focus. I dipdyed my armpits for the photoalbum and got inspired to repeat a mantra to my self: "fuck this shit, I am doing this, otherwise I will regret it for the rest of my life." Trust me, my new year resolution is to give less fucks about what the world thinks of me or my problems, and I have come a long way. I really wish I could find a way to prevent having mental breakdowns, because they exhaust me. Thank you for your support, and for the reminders <3 I am happy to finally be back with you guys, even if I feel bad for having breakdowns every now and then. Please bare with me, I promise I am working very hard to break my bad habits of self-destructiveness. |
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