|
|
Post by buffy on Apr 22, 2020 13:00:19 GMT
He tries to comfort me when I get a burst out. But oh my, I'm so fcking stubborn and I'm like 'leave me alone' while I really want him to hold me. At those moments the devil seems to take over. My heart wants him to comfort me, my mind says 'no bitch, you don't deserve it'. Tell him this, that you still want him to hold you even if you push him away. Like I mentioned, I did the hug thing with the kid every time even if he was still mad and upset. I didn't care cause he didn't push me away or told me not to touch/hug him. It's OK to be upset. And days and days and days after he from no where said that he loves when I hug him when he's mad and that "it feels safe". So just tell Sven whenever you feel you are in a good mood that you appreciate when he does that even if you don't show it. I'm happy you've talked to him about it, he doesn't have to understand or trying to make any sense of it. He just needs to be there for you and try to help out in the way that's possible for him. While you also try working on this on your own with a therapist. Also, I read somewhere you said what's wrong with me. Nothing's wrong with you and you have no idea how common this is. Also, there's help to get! And tools that'll help! Hugs <3 It feels good to finally talk about this. I don’t have someone irl, besides Sven, I can talk to about these issues. Maybe I have, but it’s such a huge step. Also seeing a therapist. Even talking to Sven is hard. Thanks for the advice and kind words you all. ❤️ |
|
|
|
Post by buffy on Apr 22, 2020 13:01:56 GMT
Seeing a therapist is a huge step. 😔 Why? So many people see a therapist. It's nothing to be ashamed for. Give it a chance. It's a way of taking care of yourself. ❤ I should indeed ... |
|
|
|
Post by heehawes on Apr 24, 2020 11:14:09 GMT
I miss queueing and the queue parties  |
|
|
|
Post by heehawes on Apr 26, 2020 8:34:27 GMT
The social distancing definitely takes a toll on you.
In waves.
One day it’s fine,
If been keeping a good attitude mostly.
Then the next it’s like - seriously, how long I gotta do this....?
I mean, I get it, and I don’t want to rush things,
And this is totally how it should be for now.
I support it.
But I feel like it weighs on your emotions a bit.
It’s one of those nights.
🤷🏻♀️
I’ll be fine,
But for now : 😞
|
|
|
|
Post by cpf on Apr 26, 2020 11:58:54 GMT
The social distancing definitely takes a toll on you. In waves. One day it’s fine, If been keeping a good attitude mostly. Then the next it’s like - seriously, how long I gotta do this....? I mean, I get it, and I don’t want to rush things, And this is totally how it should be for now. I support it. But I feel like it weighs on your emotions a bit. It’s one of those nights. 🤷🏻♀️ I’ll be fine, But for now : 😞 i feel you... |
|
|
|
Post by Kimpie on Apr 26, 2020 15:05:41 GMT
The social distancing definitely takes a toll on you. In waves. One day it’s fine, If been keeping a good attitude mostly. Then the next it’s like - seriously, how long I gotta do this....? I mean, I get it, and I don’t want to rush things, And this is totally how it should be for now. I support it. But I feel like it weighs on your emotions a bit. It’s one of those nights. 🤷🏻♀️ I’ll be fine, But for now : 😞 Indeed...had some bad days last week...now feeling better again. |
|
|
|
Post by blackrosefore on Apr 26, 2020 15:57:47 GMT
The social distancing definitely takes a toll on you. In waves. One day it’s fine, If been keeping a good attitude mostly. Then the next it’s like - seriously, how long I gotta do this....? I mean, I get it, and I don’t want to rush things, And this is totally how it should be for now. I support it. But I feel like it weighs on your emotions a bit. It’s one of those nights. 🤷🏻♀️ I’ll be fine, But for now : 😞 It gets lonely and repetitive, doesn't it? Jeff, I read the role-out plan from my state governor, and it just flattened some more of the "hold- out enthusiasm" I had. What he's talking about will take months, if not a full year or two to do, because the virus itself is mutating, and we will see spikes of cases and deaths even with heavily documented contact tracing ( the monitoring of who your were last with, and where you last were). Also, yesterday saw the highest number of cases and deaths in Maryland since it all began. And Maryland outscores both Virginia and the District of Columbia for the highest number of cases and deaths since it all began. I think social distancing ( in some shape or form) will be with us for the next decade to fifteen years.
Which is all fine if you just thrived on being an introvert and a recluse for, like, all your happily ever after.* Sarcastic laughter.* I never was much of either of those, honestly. I agree with you. It's yuck. We're all going to start suffering from some kind of depression and anhedonia, even if everything reopens eventually. Pandemics leave behind more than physical tolls, lol.
|
|
|
|
Post by cpf on Apr 26, 2020 16:44:45 GMT
Am working on a letter for a special someone... will break my record.. at page 71 now and far from finished..
the second i put it in the box will be one of the most scary ones.. as it will be all out of my control from that moment on
|
|
|
|
Post by Dani on Apr 28, 2020 6:39:42 GMT
Today I stood in front of the mirror and told myself “you’re beautiful”.
For the first time in 31 years.
Felt good.
And weird at the same time. But also good.
And I thought to myself, maybe I finally like myself enough.
|
|
|
|
Post by heehawes on Apr 28, 2020 11:48:22 GMT
Today I stood in front of the mirror and told myself “you’re beautiful”. For the first time in 31 years. Felt good. And weird at the same time. But also good. And I thought to myself, maybe I finally like myself enough. |
|
|
|
Post by Dani on Apr 28, 2020 11:55:27 GMT
Today I stood in front of the mirror and told myself “you’re beautiful”. For the first time in 31 years. Felt good. And weird at the same time. But also good. And I thought to myself, maybe I finally like myself enough. At first look my mind went to "OMG you look like shit. And you look tired AF. And pale" and then I was gonna walk away and continue my day but stopped and said NO. Not true. NOT AT ALL. I don't look like shit   |
|
|
|
Post by heehawes on Apr 28, 2020 11:58:16 GMT
At first look my mind went to "OMG you look like shit. And you look tired AF. And pale" and then I was gonna walk away and continue my day but stopped and said NO. Not true. NOT AT ALL. I don't look like shit I’m glad you’re seeing it.  and that you didn’t let the negative win. 🐝 you're beautiful inside and out. |
|
|
|
Post by drnick on Apr 28, 2020 12:47:19 GMT
Today I stood in front of the mirror and told myself “you’re beautiful”. For the first time in 31 years. Felt good. And weird at the same time. But also good. And I thought to myself, maybe I finally like myself enough. Dunno why that took you 31 years to get there, but yes, you are beautiful.  Lucky you.  |
|
|
|
Post by drnick on Apr 28, 2020 12:48:25 GMT
At first look my mind went to "OMG you look like shit. And you look tired AF. And pale" and then I was gonna walk away and continue my day but stopped and said NO. Not true. NOT AT ALL. I don't look like shit WTF!?  Pale is sexy.   |
|
|
|
Post by Fuckingperfect on Apr 28, 2020 23:14:03 GMT
I confess I've let myself become overly consumed by worry and negative feelings because of the pandemic and it's not healthy or doing me any good. I've come to terms with this last week and decided I will stay away from reading the news in the same (or close to) obsessive way that I used to back from when it escalated. I'll keep myself updated, and keep taking precautions the way I have done the past 7 weeks. I've come to realize there's only so much that I can do. I'm doing my best taking responsibility and participating in our global cooperation against the disease, by staying at home, sanitizing and washing my hands alot, keeping my distance to others, and not leaving my apartment unless I really have to.
It's no joke that one will be affected mentally, one way or another by this situation. I have never in my life been so preoccupied by reading the news and feeling the urge to stay updated on EVERYTHING about what's going on. For one who's prone to worrying to a point where it becomes an illness, as I already do have a panic disorder, I'm not doing this anymore. I don't want, nor wish this suffering upon anyone, not even my self.
All we can do is wait, patiently, doing what our authorities are recommending us to do, for solidarity, for a better tomorrow.
I'll be finishing my wine now, and lift some weights. Because that's what I'm going to do from now on.
And maybe even dye my armpit hair tomorrow.
|
|
Lucky you. 
Pale is sexy. 
