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Post by cpf on Mar 14, 2020 12:52:32 GMT
Oh man. Sophie I'm sending you all the bestest of thoughts <3 Thanks Dani |
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Post by heehawes on Mar 17, 2020 0:35:16 GMT
There’s lots I want to say.
There’s lots I want to keep inside.
Somehow, many of the things fall in to both catagories....
I go back and forth in if I should be saying them and keeping them to myself.
The panic here is getting super overwhelming.
And panic creates more panic....
So my options are to hold them inside where they build up inside of me and multiply.
Or communicate them, and feel like I’m making things worse for others....
I want to fake hopefulness, and say positive things too.
Pretend that I think everything will be ok soon.
I feel like a fake smile might do something,
Like it might at least make me more pleasurable to talk to.
Cause I feel like I need to talk somewhere.
But I can’t
I bought groceries, but haven’t eaten.
I have a knot I’m my throat.
My stomach feels empty.
I don’t have the desire to eat.
I’m just going to stay here on my sofa.
In the dark.
With this dingy blanket and wait to hear whatever else is going on.
There are rumors of full lockdown starting tomorrow.
My mom wants me to come stay with her,
But I’m too scared that I could be a carrier and give her something.
So I shot that down.
And now she’s sad.
And I feel worse because of that.
Later yalls.
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Post by qcpatdive on Mar 17, 2020 5:22:16 GMT
There’s lots I want to say. There’s lots I want to keep inside. Somehow, many of the things fall in to both catagories.... I go back and forth in if I should be saying them and keeping them to myself. The panic here is getting super overwhelming. And panic creates more panic.... So my options are to hold them inside where they build up inside of me and multiply. Or communicate them, and feel like I’m making things worse for others.... I want to fake hopefulness, and say positive things too. Pretend that I think everything will be ok soon. I feel like a fake smile might do something, Like it might at least make me more pleasurable to talk to. Cause I feel like I need to talk somewhere. But I can’t I bought groceries, but haven’t eaten. I have a knot I’m my throat. My stomach feels empty. I don’t have the desire to eat. I’m just going to stay here on my sofa. In the dark. With this dingy blanket and wait to hear whatever else is going on. There are rumors of full lockdown starting tomorrow. My mom wants me to come stay with her, But I’m too scared that I could be a carrier and give her something. So I shot that down. And now she’s sad. And I feel worse because of that. Later yalls. if I had the ability to write in English, that is about what I would have written. ❤️❤️❤️❤️ |
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Post by cpf on Mar 18, 2020 17:13:20 GMT
Today was last day at the office, working from home starting tomorrow.. On way home doc called.. He can't promise how long it will take but he will do his best to plan all tests asap
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Post by heehawes on Mar 19, 2020 7:46:36 GMT
#drunk....
not that bad...
but there's literally nothing else to do
🤷🏻♀️
#coronas
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Post by cpf on Mar 19, 2020 16:15:05 GMT
Today was last day at the office, working from home starting tomorrow.. On way home doc called.. He can't promise how long it will take but he will do his best to plan all tests asap Hospital called this morning, if i could come over... Internist wanted to tell me in person he changed his mind n rather waits few more months with tests.. When i left hospital neuro called, she called radiology herself and planned MRI for tomorrow... Mixed feelings |
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Post by heehawes on Apr 2, 2020 14:42:15 GMT
Brain is shifting again.... I desperately want everybody I love to stay safe (that’s been my main concern and that hasn’t changed).... I have so much fear of that, of losing the people I love... But, Now my brain is telling me that I’m gonna get it, and die (that’s where the shift is) I mean. If that’s what happens, that’s what happens....  I started coughing again, and am getting myself paranoid about that. And my eyes have been blurry the last couple days (and sorry for tmi, but one of them has been like gross drippy) And the headaches. I can still taste stuff but certain things taste gross that used to taste good.... maybe it’s just cause I haven’t been eating healthy, and my body wants real food - who knows. I miss everybody Stay safe. I want to see everybody again |
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Post by Kimpie on Apr 2, 2020 18:06:53 GMT
Brain is shifting again.... I desperately want everybody I love to stay safe (that’s been my main concern and that hasn’t changed).... I have so much fear of that, of losing the people I love... But, Now my brain is telling me that I’m gonna get it, and die (that’s where the shift is) I mean. If that’s what happens, that’s what happens.... I started coughing again, and am getting myself paranoid about that. And my eyes have been blurry the last couple days (and sorry for tmi, but one of them has been like gross drippy) And the headaches. I can still taste stuff but certain things taste gross that used to taste good.... maybe it’s just cause I haven’t been eating healthy, and my body wants real food - who knows. I miss everybody Stay safe. I want to see everybody again Take care of yourself! If you are not sure, call a doctor. I never met anyone of you all but I swear next tour I will 😊 Stay safe! |
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Post by heehawes on Apr 3, 2020 6:12:04 GMT
And now I feel all congested. Ughhhh. 😫
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Post by buffy on Apr 3, 2020 13:51:48 GMT
And now I feel all congested. Ughhhh. 😫 Maybe it’s just stress. Go for a walk or a jog (if that’s allowed). Relax, eventually everything will turn out fine. |
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Post by Dani on Apr 3, 2020 15:01:15 GMT
And now I feel all congested. Ughhhh. 😫 Water water water!!! |
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Post by heehawes on Apr 3, 2020 15:29:46 GMT
Noooooo! 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
Bill Withers died 😫😫😫😫😫
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Post by cpf on Apr 3, 2020 16:14:25 GMT
Numberfact: Tomorrow I'll be 33yrs and 333days old..
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Post by heehawes on Apr 5, 2020 2:21:52 GMT
Numberfact: Tomorrow I'll be 33yrs and 333days old.. Happy Threethday |
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Post by buffy on Apr 5, 2020 8:10:34 GMT
I told myself to stay await, but something inside me is stronger. Damn it. I hate myself for being this weak.
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