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Post by Dani on Nov 26, 2019 18:15:06 GMT
I know OCD is something else but it's still an obsession for me to do these stuffs doh.
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Post by heehawes on Nov 26, 2019 18:49:43 GMT
Uhh she sent me the journals (WHY would you send that to someone like me with this OCD) and I could read that there's a 1/2 cm thing on her liver and the doc pretty much excluded the "common cysts" and after googling I found that they usually are 5-10 cm. Uh why'd she send me this for Jesus. Anyway I found someone having the same and it was a "birth mark" on the liver 1 cm big. Anyway. I need to go down to dinner with everyone now and put on a happy face. Wohooo! I'll probably get in the bath after and come on here and cry some more. enjoy your dinner and your bath. we'll be here when you get back. that sounds good to me (right?), what you said, that its so small in comparison to a cyst... hopefully it is nothing, like a birthmark. tell your Mom I said "Hej" if the opportunity arrises. <# but still, in my life, even with reading good stuff, I still always keep reading until I drive myself crazy. I hope you aren't going too crazy in all this. I believe the food, and friends, and bath will be helpful  |
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Post by Kimpie on Nov 26, 2019 20:29:53 GMT
Uhh she sent me the journals (WHY would you send that to someone like me with this OCD) and I could read that there's a 1/2 cm thing on her liver and the doc pretty much excluded the "common cysts" and after googling I found that they usually are 5-10 cm. Uh why'd she send me this for Jesus. Anyway I found someone having the same and it was a "birth mark" on the liver 1 cm big. Anyway. I need to go down to dinner with everyone now and put on a happy face. Wohooo! I'll probably get in the bath after and come on here and cry some more. It's normal you cried. When my mum told me there was something in her breast, I cried too. But we always tried to stay positive. When the diagnose of cancer came, I cried again but my mum was positive and we always supported her and tried to stay positive. Well, she found it herself very quickly and I think that saved her life. We are now 3 years later and every fucking check up at hospital we are all nervous... I hope it's not as bad as you know think...you should stay positive and when it's so small and it is bad, it probably can be cured. I'm sending a lot of positive thoughts and love your way <3 |
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Post by Dani on Nov 26, 2019 21:00:29 GMT
Uhh she sent me the journals (WHY would you send that to someone like me with this OCD) and I could read that there's a 1/2 cm thing on her liver and the doc pretty much excluded the "common cysts" and after googling I found that they usually are 5-10 cm. Uh why'd she send me this for Jesus. Anyway I found someone having the same and it was a "birth mark" on the liver 1 cm big. Anyway. I need to go down to dinner with everyone now and put on a happy face. Wohooo! I'll probably get in the bath after and come on here and cry some more. enjoy your dinner and your bath. we'll be here when you get back. that sounds good to me (right?), what you said, that its so small in comparison to a cyst... hopefully it is nothing, like a birthmark. tell your Mom I said "Hej" if the opportunity arrises. <# but still, in my life, even with reading good stuff, I still always keep reading until I drive myself crazy. I hope you aren't going too crazy in all this. I believe the food, and friends, and bath will be helpful I did. I really did. They are a bunch of energy giving amazing human beings that I really adore💕 But yeah back in my room now and tbh I donno what to think. I’m not surprised at all considering my thoughts. I knew they had a reason and why they came like a fucking bitch slap from nowhere and without any reason or warning and I feel scared because of that. I wish it was a 5-10 cm thing cause that’d be within what’s normal but this isn’t and I’m scared it’s aggressive, the tiny things usually are☹️ but at the same time half of me is thinking positive but half is panicking. I donno how to act in this. I’m trying to think that it’s nothing I can do anything about anyway and I’m trying not to think that it’s the worst case scenario but knowing the history of our family it breaks me, pretty much. I pretty much told her oh ok but it’s not point in googling any of that cause we don’t understand doctor’s language. It’s pretty common with cysts on liver and what’s making you feel sick is probably the infection in bowel, which you’ll probably get meds for so it’ll help ❤️ Blood results were great. and she said yes we’ll take it one day at the time. so she’s good and I’m trying to be too, until we know more. I just hope I won’t be one of them positive people when you know the truth and you still try to ignore it and you go all super positive vibes on it all. Annoying as fuck. I‘ll share it on here and I want you to help me say “shut the fuck up”, if I’m trying to procrastinate anything. Ok. |
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Post by Dani on Nov 26, 2019 21:06:58 GMT
Uhh she sent me the journals (WHY would you send that to someone like me with this OCD) and I could read that there's a 1/2 cm thing on her liver and the doc pretty much excluded the "common cysts" and after googling I found that they usually are 5-10 cm. Uh why'd she send me this for Jesus. Anyway I found someone having the same and it was a "birth mark" on the liver 1 cm big. Anyway. I need to go down to dinner with everyone now and put on a happy face. Wohooo! I'll probably get in the bath after and come on here and cry some more. It's normal you cried. When my mum told me there was something in her breast, I cried too. But we always tried to stay positive. When the diagnose of cancer came, I cried again but my mum was positive and we always supported her and tried to stay positive. Well, she found it herself very quickly and I think that saved her life. We are now 3 years later and every fucking check up at hospital we are all nervous... I hope it's not as bad as you know think...you should stay positive and when it's so small and it is bad, it probably can be cured. I'm sending a lot of positive thoughts and love your way <3 Usually liver gets shit from something else. In this case the bowel. If it’s anything on the liver it’s coming from the bowel. I told her literally 5 years ago to go check it. Cause as soon as she ate something her stomach hurt somehow, which to me is a sign that something isn’t right. She told me she said the same thing her to dad when he was in pain about whatsoever. Turns out that was a cancer in his prostate(?) do you say that? And he died. And she kept saying “I told him to check it up 5 years before”, I wish he had and he’d still be with us (I never knew him and he died when I was 1 year), but yeah of course my mind goes that way. Anyway. The best thing is to not think about any of this but I donno how to do that 🤷♀️ |
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Post by Kimpie on Nov 26, 2019 21:14:11 GMT
It's normal you cried. When my mum told me there was something in her breast, I cried too. But we always tried to stay positive. When the diagnose of cancer came, I cried again but my mum was positive and we always supported her and tried to stay positive. Well, she found it herself very quickly and I think that saved her life. We are now 3 years later and every fucking check up at hospital we are all nervous... I hope it's not as bad as you know think...you should stay positive and when it's so small and it is bad, it probably can be cured. I'm sending a lot of positive thoughts and love your way <3 Usually liver gets shit from something else. In this case the bowel. If it’s anything on the liver it’s coming from the bowel. I told her literally 5 years ago to go check it. Cause as soon as she ate something her stomach hurt somehow, which to me is a sign that something isn’t right. She told me she said the same thing her to dad when he was in pain about whatsoever. Turns out that was a cancer in his prostate(?) do you say that? And he died. And she kept saying “I told him to check it up 5 years before”, I wish he had and he’d still be with us (I never knew him and he died when I was 1 year), but yeah of course my mind goes that way. Anyway. The best thing is to not think about any of this but I donno how to do that 🤷♀️ It will always be on your mind. And we could all stay so positive because doctors gave her a 98 procent chance to survive. I really hope it's nothing bad...try to find a way to cope with it. At the moment we knew, I started participating in a lot of things to support cancer foundations. My escape was running...but all the kilometers I ran, were sponsored. It was just my escape from all the bad thoughts which run through your head anyway. Just send big hug your way! |
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Post by Dani on Nov 26, 2019 21:20:06 GMT
Usually liver gets shit from something else. In this case the bowel. If it’s anything on the liver it’s coming from the bowel. I told her literally 5 years ago to go check it. Cause as soon as she ate something her stomach hurt somehow, which to me is a sign that something isn’t right. She told me she said the same thing her to dad when he was in pain about whatsoever. Turns out that was a cancer in his prostate(?) do you say that? And he died. And she kept saying “I told him to check it up 5 years before”, I wish he had and he’d still be with us (I never knew him and he died when I was 1 year), but yeah of course my mind goes that way. Anyway. The best thing is to not think about any of this but I donno how to do that 🤷♀️ It will always be on your mind. And we could all stay so positive because doctors gave her a 98 procent chance to survive. I really hope it's nothing bad...try to find a way to cope with it. At the moment we knew, I started participating in a lot of things to support cancer foundations. My escape was running...but all the kilometers I ran, were sponsored. It was just my escape from all the bad thoughts which run through your head anyway. Just send big hug your way! Hugs ❤️ Somehow my mind was always worrying about dad and his smoking. And not that long ago, it hit me it’ll probably be that my dad outlives me and my mom is the one I should worry about. Not kiddingn if that’s what I thought like a year ago. Cause my dad has more energy than me and them smokers can fucking outlive anyone lol. So yah every chance I bump in to to support both cancer and heart and what not charities I always do just because it makes me think of the future and that I want no one to not survive this. If I know myself right I’ll probably just cry and drink wine and not wanna run anything at all lol ☹️😣 OK HAVE TO STOP THIS WORST CASE SCENARIO THINKING THAT IM SO GOOD AT |
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Post by Dani on Nov 27, 2019 16:04:10 GMT
^^ thanks for letting me vent. I don’t wanna read what I wrote but I needed it then and this place is really comforting in times like that.
I also finished over a half bottle of wine and I talked on the phone with two friends for over one hour each
Crying yeah
I was up to 1 am and I woke 2-3 times
With headache
A little bit drunk
And with the puffiest eyes in the world - I flushed ice cold water on them it made my vision disappear hahahah,
However I looked normal but I felt crap
And I don’t regret any of it cause I really needed it. Tonight feels much better and I’m back to being my optimistic self again ❤️🙏
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Post by Dani on Nov 28, 2019 18:48:35 GMT
Now all posts I see everywhere are about people losing their moms
😭💔
On FB just now. Pls can someone get me outta this 😶
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Post by Kimpie on Nov 28, 2019 19:30:02 GMT
Now all posts I see everywhere are about people losing their moms 😭💔 On FB just now. Pls can someone get me outta this 😶 Aaaw! Hugs! How is she? Any news yet? |
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Post by alrightsir on Nov 28, 2019 21:25:42 GMT
We broke up.
Gosh it was exactly 50 months, exact date. Why did it have to go wrong when it could be so good?
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Post by heehawes on Nov 29, 2019 11:42:20 GMT
We broke up. Gosh it was exactly 50 months, exact date. Why did it have to go wrong when it could be so good? I’m sure you have a million thoughts in your head..... I don’t know how the relationship was. Sometimes things go bad... Sometimes that is only temporary. Sometimes the breakup is for the better? Or maybe you just have some things that need to be worked out and you’ll be stronger than ever. No matter what the case is, I hope you are ok. This stuff is never fun. So good luck w/ it all.  |
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Post by alrightsir on Nov 29, 2019 21:00:30 GMT
We broke up. Gosh it was exactly 50 months, exact date. Why did it have to go wrong when it could be so good? I’m sure you have a million thoughts in your head..... I don’t know how the relationship was. Sometimes things go bad... Sometimes that is only temporary. Sometimes the breakup is for the better? Or maybe you just have some things that need to be worked out and you’ll be stronger than ever. No matter what the case is, I hope you are ok. This stuff is never fun. So good luck w/ it all. Yeah. There was a reason why we ended up here so either way, it will be for the better. You just can't work on other people indefinitely, it's their job to do. Thanks 🤗 |
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Post by purple18 on Dec 1, 2019 15:21:28 GMT
We broke up. Gosh it was exactly 50 months, exact date. Why did it have to go wrong when it could be so good? noooo talk to me about it if you feel like it. Hugs ❤️ |
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Post by purple18 on Dec 1, 2019 15:23:38 GMT
Now all posts I see everywhere are about people losing their moms 😭💔 On FB just now. Pls can someone get me outta this 😶 hey honey i didnt read much else about this here but are there news of your Mama? Crossing fingers for everything to go well. You need to stay strong but also you totally need to vent your feelings and thoughts! |
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