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Post by chrispycreme7 on May 9, 2019 1:21:01 GMT
So I've been doing really well and not needing to use my feeding tube..oh and also I had a trip to the emergency room because the damn thing just fell out of my stomach 😮 ...my nausea really kicked in (I'm always nauseous so I just deal with it) and I stopped eating again but I was vomiting...I'm usually not that stressed about it but in the past 2 weeks 5 or 6 people in the group I'm in have passed away from complications of this illness. The last one was a YouTuber I followed when I first found out about my illness. She was only 23 and her feeding tube tangled with her intestines. It really hit home. I was so sick yesterday that I gave in and used my feeding tube for the first time in months. I felt soo damn defeated... anyway its been crazy...lol found out my ex after many, many years unblocked me. Like why after all this time?! It really made me angry, so much so that I messaged her and told her to block me again hahahaha...it had to be her blocking me. I can't explain why but it just has to be that way....the person I'm currently talking to (I've said before I know it won't really turn into anything but we are having fun with each other and that's all that matters) she's a social media influencer...nobody big or famous but I can't really talk about it on my social media. She was talking live and she got up ,left her stream mid-sentence and sent me something 😂😂😏 came back like nothing happened hahahaha fucking dead 😂😂😂 everyone was asking what happened, where did she go...did I mention she used to do bikini competitions 😮😮 ugh I don't know why I keep doing risky shit .I guess you only live once 🤷♀️😂 I really need to talk to my therapist 😬😂 per usual my overshare 😂😂😂 Omg you too  Please be safe and do what's best for your health and not whatever your brain is thinking  Sometimes we don't make the best decisions. Please eat <3 And you're not the only one oversharing stuff, haha. This is what this place is for  Good luck with your new friend, like you said, just have fun and don't think too much. Who knows if it could grow into something  yeah I've been really sick for a while now..you know I can't explain it, but almost dying last year did wonders for my mental health and I've been in a really good place mentally compared to before! I can't just eat because the gastric disease I have literally means paralyzed stomach ...it just doesn't work..thank you...I'm sorry to hear you're also going through health issues 😪 Lol I'm always oversharing hahahaha my classic "word vomit" |
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Post by chrispycreme7 on May 9, 2019 1:34:07 GMT
So I've been doing really well and not needing to use my feeding tube..oh and also I had a trip to the emergency room because the damn thing just fell out of my stomach 😮 ...my nausea really kicked in (I'm always nauseous so I just deal with it) and I stopped eating again but I was vomiting...I'm usually not that stressed about it but in the past 2 weeks 5 or 6 people in the group I'm in have passed away from complications of this illness. The last one was a YouTuber I followed when I first found out about my illness. She was only 23 and her feeding tube tangled with her intestines. It really hit home. I was so sick yesterday that I gave in and used my feeding tube for the first time in months. I felt soo damn defeated... anyway its been crazy...lol found out my ex after many, many years unblocked me. Like why after all this time?! It really made me angry, so much so that I messaged her and told her to block me again hahahaha...it had to be her blocking me. I can't explain why but it just has to be that way....the person I'm currently talking to (I've said before I know it won't really turn into anything but we are having fun with each other and that's all that matters) she's a social media influencer...nobody big or famous but I can't really talk about it on my social media. She was talking live and she got up ,left her stream mid-sentence and sent me something 😂😂😏 came back like nothing happened hahahaha fucking dead 😂😂😂 everyone was asking what happened, where did she go...did I mention she used to do bikini competitions 😮😮 ugh I don't know why I keep doing risky shit .I guess you only live once 🤷♀️😂 I really need to talk to my therapist 😬😂 per usual my overshare 😂😂😂 Hi, Christy! Sorry, to hear that things continue to be scary and rough for ya. I wish there was a way I could boost your spirits<3 Your ex is still being a d888 I see. I'm happy your new love is making the effort and trying to be there for you.
But now I commiserate with you, because I just spent last weekend in the hospital for sepsis related to something necrotic in my own body. ( There's a part of my brain that realizes that if they hadn't caught this when they did, I might have died... whatevs). I was in excruciating pain. I had five blood draws, test after diagnostic test, lots of fluids, was confined to bed, and was moved five times to five different rooms. I hated the beeping of every instrument the whole time. Yes, I am a nurse. But I hate things that go "beep."
To make matters worse, I can't go back to my job, now, because of body weakness, so I am on leave. And I won't have the surgery until the end of this month, or early next month. So my income is scratched. I don't feel good physically or mentally. So I understand fully when you say "I felt soo damn defeated." The positive is the support I've been getting from my family, my family's friends, from my boss and workplace, and ... from my new boyfriend ( yeah. I thought that would never freakin' happen  in this life, having never encountered anybody that I was "into" who ever stuck around). But this guy hasn't left/ghosted me, yet. He sent me texts while I was lying in the hospital in pain. And he still texted me last night.
Point is, I feel grateful and ashamed for everything that has happened. But I was blindsided and couldn't control this event in my life! When you talk about negative headspace, feeling defeat based on a fragile body is up there. I get it. Totally.
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Post by blackrosefore on May 9, 2019 14:22:58 GMT
Hi, Christy! Sorry, to hear that things continue to be scary and rough for ya. I wish there was a way I could boost your spirits<3 Your ex is still being a d888 I see. I'm happy your new love is making the effort and trying to be there for you.
But now I commiserate with you, because I just spent last weekend in the hospital for sepsis related to something necrotic in my own body. ( There's a part of my brain that realizes that if they hadn't caught this when they did, I might have died... whatevs). I was in excruciating pain. I had five blood draws, test after diagnostic test, lots of fluids, was confined to bed, and was moved five times to five different rooms. I hated the beeping of every instrument the whole time. Yes, I am a nurse. But I hate things that go "beep."
To make matters worse, I can't go back to my job, now, because of body weakness, so I am on leave. And I won't have the surgery until the end of this month, or early next month. So my income is scratched. I don't feel good physically or mentally. So I understand fully when you say "I felt soo damn defeated." The positive is the support I've been getting from my family, my family's friends, from my boss and workplace, and ... from my new boyfriend ( yeah. I thought that would never freakin' happen in this life, having never encountered anybody that I was "into" who ever stuck around). But this guy hasn't left/ghosted me, yet. He sent me texts while I was lying in the hospital in pain. And he still texted me last night.
Point is, I feel grateful and ashamed for everything that has happened. But I was blindsided and couldn't control this event in my life! When you talk about negative headspace, feeling defeat based on a fragile body is up there. I get it. Totally.
Thanks, babe! BOOYAH!!!
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Post by Dani on May 10, 2019 15:46:12 GMT
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Post by heehawes on May 10, 2019 16:03:50 GMT
back atcha. ❤️😊 meaaaaanit |
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Post by Dani on May 10, 2019 16:04:58 GMT
back atcha. ❤️😊 meaaaaanit Alottttt |
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Post by drnick on May 10, 2019 16:08:04 GMT
💖💕❤you too, qtpie! 
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Post by Dani on May 10, 2019 16:32:09 GMT
💖💕❤you too, qtpie! 😍🥰🥳😍😘😘😘😘💖❤️💖❤️💖 |
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Post by drnick on May 10, 2019 16:33:39 GMT
💖💕❤you too, qtpie! 😍🥰🥳😍😘😘😘😘💖❤️💖❤️💖  |
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Post by Dani on May 10, 2019 16:40:14 GMT
Nawwwwwwwww come hereeeeeee🥰💖💖💖 |
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Post by chrispycreme7 on May 11, 2019 2:57:23 GMT
😬😬🤦♀️ I almost let it slip out to a bunch of people in a group chat about talking to that girl...I just saw her name and responded without checking. It went to the group chat and not her 😬😂😂
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Post by drnick on May 11, 2019 8:20:51 GMT
😬😬🤦♀️ I almost let it slip out to a bunch of people in a group chat about talking to that girl...I just saw her name and responded without checking. It went to the group chat and not her 😬😂😂 What now? Almost or did it?  |
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Post by cpf on May 11, 2019 9:02:47 GMT
Just got new simcard for new phonw as i wanna start all over n just reinstall everything instead of transferring stuff from old to new. Rather had new number too but somethings going on what makes that i better keep it.
But didnt realise old simcard would stop working immediately.. so off the grid for the weekend (and to be honest.. dont really mind that)
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Post by chrispycreme7 on May 11, 2019 10:59:43 GMT
😬😬🤦♀️ I almost let it slip out to a bunch of people in a group chat about talking to that girl...I just saw her name and responded without checking. It went to the group chat and not her 😬😂😂 What now? Almost or did it? almost..I'm always flirty so no one really thought anything about it. People are starting to notice because we've had a few jokes directed at us. A lot of people don't know she's gay 😂 |
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Post by heehawes on May 11, 2019 15:47:57 GMT
im in that "cant stay awake at all" state of being.
pass out for like 6 seconds. wake up for 3 seconds, fall asleep again....
my brain keeps on trying to start dreams but then im back and its messing up awake me's ability to understand reality.
🤷🏻♀️
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Please be safe and do what's best for your health and not whatever your brain is thinking 
Sometimes we don't make the best decisions. Please eat <3 
Good luck with your new friend, like you said, just have fun and don't think too much. Who knows if it could grow into something 
in this life, having never encountered anybody that I was "into" who ever stuck around). But this guy hasn't left/ghosted me, yet. He sent me texts while I was lying in the hospital in pain. And he still texted me last night. 
