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Post by Danielle on Mar 10, 2018 14:48:45 GMT
Thought this might be fun. Inspired by the re-introduce yourself thread. Why were you banned from PP?
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Post by Fuckingperfect on Mar 10, 2018 14:59:37 GMT
I've mentioned it a couple of times on FB in the group, and posted a limited view status as well informing PP'ers about it, so it's no longer a secret.
My original account P!nkfan#1 from 2003 was banned in late spring 2014 because I was ill from psychosis, and I wasn't aware of how I behaved. I spammed the boards with my nonsense rambling, scaring the crap out of people. This was beyond my control, and by far the most frightening and traumatizing experience of my life. So they banned me to stop me from posting, which I am glad they did, but my old posts are still there, unfortunately. I have barely visited PP since, in fear of what I'd might find.. Came across one comment about me and my previous madness, which I found quite offensive tbh. I was being rediculed. -.-
I don't remember all of it, a lot is still just a blur, and when I have flashbacks I start questioning whether or not it really happened, and I always conclude that it did, because I did so many bizarre and embarrassing stuff when I was ill. I wish they would delete my old posts, because I was having a huge obsession with Pink and her album being dedicated to me and seriously, that was fuqued up. I hope Pink never saw that.
I eventually ended up with involuntary hold on psychiactric ward for 10 days.
So just to clear things up, that was a first time psychosis, and I haven't had one since. I do not have schizophrenia, the psychosis was caused by stress, drugs, and being involved with an extremely toxic person. (not going into details because that's irrelevant).
I've been banned a couple of other times with other accounts because I was stupid and immature, I deserved it. But I didn't deserve being kicked out because of something I could not control.
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Post by Danielle on Mar 10, 2018 15:31:44 GMT
Thank you for sharing that, I'm sorry to hear you were ridiculed (but admittedly not surprised - people can be ruthless). Glad to hear you are in a better place now.
I can relate to the embarrassing posts. I recently went through and deleted most of my posts as well. I'm Autistic and have ADHD and Dyspraxia. At 14 when I became active on forums, I was struggling with life. I'd left school and spent an entire year alone in my bedroom. Let's just say I was easy to upset.
I'll never be a social butterfly and still struggle, but finally beginning to understand and accept myself. Glad to have a fresh start in a way.
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Post by Fuckingperfect on Mar 10, 2018 15:50:46 GMT
Thank you for sharing that, I'm sorry to hear you were ridiculed (but admittedly not surprised - people can be ruthless). Glad to hear you are in a better place now. I can relate to the embarrassing posts. I recently went through and deleted most of my posts as well. I'm Autistic and have ADHD and Dyspraxia. At 14 when I became active on forums, I was struggling with life. I'd left school and spent an entire year alone in my bedroom. Let's just say I was easy to upset. I'll never be a social butterfly and still struggle, but finally beginning to understand and accept myself. Glad to have a fresh start in a way. Thank you. <3 The prize of being honest has its costs, but it's part of my recovery process and I am glad I am able to openly talk about what happened now, though I keep some details to myself still. There were so many aspects of that psychosis that made me wish I dug a hole in the ground a long time ago, for example the one being overly obsessed with Pink and her albums being dedicated to me was something I am not proud of. Trying to remind myself that I couldn't control my thoughts and behaviour. Because for me, they were real. I seriously thought it was. I was convinced everything was about me, and anyone telling me differently, well, they had their fair share of my psychotic rage. I can relate to the isolation and ADHD too.. I got the ADHD diagnosis in 2012. I developed social anxiety after the psychosis, and I barely left my apartment for almost a year, only left my apt to see my therapist once a week. Social anxiety is better now, but sadly the whole thing caused me to relapse from an eating disorder I once recovered from. I hope you can find support in this forum, you are not alone <3 I am so happy to finally be part of this community again, lets use this to overcome our past and look forward to rise and shine again!  |
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Post by Danielle on Mar 10, 2018 19:56:10 GMT
And this is exactly why I loved these forums. Thank you. You've made me smile. :-) It's an amazing thing to find your tribe. |
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Post by drnick on Mar 10, 2018 19:57:19 GMT
Uhm, I wasn't. Despite swearing worse than P!nk, like all over the fuckplace. 
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Post by Dani on Mar 10, 2018 21:37:28 GMT
Uhm, I wasn't. Despite swearing worse than P!nk, like all over the fuckplace.
Haha, you and me swore all the time  |
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Post by Fuckingperfect on Mar 10, 2018 22:27:37 GMT
And this is exactly why I loved these forums. Thank you. You've made me smile. :-) It's an amazing thing to find your tribe. I know right You're welcome <3 Lets all make the best of this situation, and as long as we still stick together - it'll all work out for us, I am sure of it I'm not giving up without a fight. |
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Post by thinkpink4bex on Mar 11, 2018 0:17:05 GMT
I've mentioned it a couple of times on FB in the group, and posted a limited view status as well informing PP'ers about it, so it's no longer a secret. My original account P!nkfan#1 from 2003 was banned in late spring 2014 because I was ill from psychosis, and I wasn't aware of how I behaved. I spammed the boards with my nonsense rambling, scaring the crap out of people. This was beyond my control, and by far the most frightening and traumatizing experience of my life. So they banned me to stop me from posting, which I am glad they did, but my old posts are still there, unfortunately. I have barely visited PP since, in fear of what I'd might find.. Came across one comment about me and my previous madness, which I found quite offensive tbh. I was being rediculed. -.- I don't remember all of it, a lot is still just a blur, and when I have flashbacks I start questioning whether or not it really happened, and I always conclude that it did, because I did so many bizarre and embarrassing stuff when I was ill. I wish they would delete my old posts, because I was having a huge obsession with Pink and her album being dedicated to me and seriously, that was fuqued up. I hope Pink never saw that. I eventually ended up with involuntary hold on psychiactric ward for 10 days. So just to clear things up, that was a first time psychosis, and I haven't had one since. I do not have schizophrenia, the psychosis was caused by stress, drugs, and being involved with an extremely toxic person. (not going into details because that's irrelevant). I've been banned a couple of other times with other accounts because I was stupid and immature, I deserved it. But I didn't deserve being kicked out because of something I could not control. Reading this reminds me why I stay away from the forums, bitches be nasty. I don't know who you are (I don't think) but sorry to read you had a rough patch. Our brains sometimes fall on the malfunction button and it's not easy to switch it off. PS, as it looks like the old forum is gone... You have a clean slate |
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Post by thinkpink4bex on Mar 11, 2018 0:22:42 GMT
Somehow I was never banned. I think my swear words had **** in them....
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Post by Fuckingperfect on Mar 12, 2018 5:41:17 GMT
Reading this reminds me why I stay away from the forums, bitches be nasty. I don't know who you are (I don't think) but sorry to read you had a rough patch. Our brains sometimes fall on the malfunction button and it's not easy to switch it off. PS, as it looks like the old forum is gone... You have a clean slate I really wish I did too, especially back then. And if I remember correctly.. When the forums come back (I still am optimistic ), I will have to warn you that I think (if my memory isn't playing games with me ) I quoted you somewhere on pp, and if I said omething mean or nasty (which is highly possible), I really am truly sorry.  I take back everything single word I said to everyone from that period of time ca mid March - June 2014. I do know who you are though, we've met a couple of times at gigs in Sweden and Holland. Glad to see you decided to join us here |
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Post by thinkpink4bex on Mar 12, 2018 12:00:46 GMT
Reading this reminds me why I stay away from the forums, bitches be nasty. I don't know who you are (I don't think) but sorry to read you had a rough patch. Our brains sometimes fall on the malfunction button and it's not easy to switch it off. PS, as it looks like the old forum is gone... You have a clean slate I really wish I did too, especially back then. And if I remember correctly.. When the forums come back (I still am optimistic ), I will have to warn you that I think (if my memory isn't playing games with me ) I quoted you somewhere on pp, and if I said omething mean or nasty (which is highly possible), I really am truly sorry. I take back everything single word I said to everyone from that period of time ca mid March - June 2014. I do know who you are though, we've met a couple of times at gigs in Sweden and Holland. Glad to see you decided to join us here My memory does fail me, and I am glad of that, because I know a lot of shit has been said about me, by so many people who don't know me, or some people who think they know me, and some people who maybe want to know me, and a couple who know me better than others (less said about that the better)...... I am thick skinned, and a big girl, and I am not gonna go hunting for bullshit. Whatever it was, no skin off my back, peace. The only people I hold grudges against (and remember) are people who try and cut the queue infront of me when I have been sat on concrete for a lot of hours before them... haha. So don't do that and we are cool 😂 |
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Post by blackrosefore on Mar 12, 2018 13:28:31 GMT
I was never banned. Ever.  |
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Post by Fuckingperfect on Mar 12, 2018 18:40:01 GMT
I really wish I did too, especially back then. And if I remember correctly.. When the forums come back (I still am optimistic ), I will have to warn you that I think (if my memory isn't playing games with me ) I quoted you somewhere on pp, and if I said omething mean or nasty (which is highly possible), I really am truly sorry. I take back everything single word I said to everyone from that period of time ca mid March - June 2014. I do know who you are though, we've met a couple of times at gigs in Sweden and Holland. Glad to see you decided to join us here My memory does fail me, and I am glad of that, because I know a lot of shit has been said about me, by so many people who don't know me, or some people who think they know me, and some people who maybe want to know me, and a couple who know me better than others (less said about that the better)...... I am thick skinned, and a big girl, and I am not gonna go hunting for bullshit. Whatever it was, no skin off my back, peace. The only people I hold grudges against (and remember) are people who try and cut the queue infront of me when I have been sat on concrete for a lot of hours before them... haha. So don't do that and we are cool 😂 Ty <3 I feel more relaxed now. You will never see me cut the line, because I cannot stand those people either! We are a group of hardcore fans, and we know how to behave, and we've earned our spots simply because we've sat on concrete for hours on end, there's no way I would let anyone sneak past me. Nor would I do the same towards others. So no worries, I know the queuing etiquette.  |
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Post by thinkpink4bex on Mar 12, 2018 20:12:46 GMT
Ty <3 I feel more relaxed now. You will never see me cut the line, because I cannot stand those people either! We are a group of hardcore fans, and we know how to behave, and we've earned our spots simply because we've sat on concrete for hours on end, there's no way I would let anyone sneak past me. Nor would I do the same towards others. So no worries, I know the queuing etiquette. No worries! I think the Dutchies are some of the most hardcore queuers, its not often I turn up to a queue and people already be there, but all bar maybe one Netherlands gig, i think you girls were there earlier. I just remember happy times (i only have an extremely vague memory of there being some kind of fall out once upon a time, and i am not even convinced i was involved, because i think i have only had fun times with you lot) I remember being taught some Dutch, including the words for Happy Dyke, or Smiley Dyke or something like that, i can still say it, but i have no idea how to type it. Playing football and being amazed at how good Dutch girls are (girls dont really play football much in the UK, and definitely not in school). I think we played card games. One gig i didnt have a ticket for and Renee and a couple of Dutchies helped go up n down the queue to see if anyone had spares. So yeah.... basically, you coulda said nothing and i would have had zero idea you had ever said anything about me. You know what i said about brain malfunction.... my memory is shot to pieces. Only something that REALLY upset/hurt/pissed me off sticks in my mind. So you dont need to worry about me. I am pretty chilled.
EDIT: OK so Lotta just told me you arent a Dutchie.... and i checked, you are from Norway.... so, hun i absolutely have no memory of anything you have said or done. |
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I take back everything single word I said to everyone from that period of time ca mid March - June 2014. I do know who you are though, we've met a couple of times at gigs in Sweden and Holland. Glad to see you decided to join us here 
