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Post by Dani on May 15, 2018 18:54:52 GMT
I confess I broke with the terms of the contract. It feels impossible to let go of this addiction. What addiction?  My dad said something about bad habits and addictions, about how easy they are to get and you don't even notice they are addictions until you try to end them. But I think if we could live without them once, we can live without them again. Whatever they might be. |
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Post by Fuckingperfect on May 15, 2018 19:17:34 GMT
I confess I broke with the terms of the contract. It feels impossible to let go of this addiction. What addiction? My dad said something about bad habits and addictions, about how easy they are to get and you don't even notice they are addictions until you try to end them. But I think if we could live without them once, we can live without them again. Whatever they might be. Weighing myself at home. I used to step on that bloody scale up to ten - fifteen times daily, and as part of the contract, I am not allowed (well I am free to do whatever the hell I want as long as I'm not under forced treatment for my eating disorder), to weigh myself between weigh ins at the doctor once a week. Kind of broke that several weeks ago. Dammit I know I shouldn't, but idk it's hard letting go of the "control". Yes I wrote "" because in reality the ed is controlling me. And I should know better seeing as my day gets ruined if I don't see the number I "want". |
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Post by Dani on May 15, 2018 20:17:51 GMT
What addiction? My dad said something about bad habits and addictions, about how easy they are to get and you don't even notice they are addictions until you try to end them. But I think if we could live without them once, we can live without them again. Whatever they might be. Weighing myself at home. I used to step on that bloody scale up to ten - fifteen times daily, and as part of the contract, I am not allowed (well I am free to do whatever the hell I want as long as I'm not under forced treatment for my eating disorder), to weigh myself between weigh ins at the doctor once a week. Kind of broke that several weeks ago. Dammit I know I shouldn't, but idk it's hard letting go of the "control". Yes I wrote "" because in reality the ed is controlling me. And I should know better seeing as my day gets ruined if I don't see the number I "want". Okay. Damn. Hang in there, Maren. |
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Post by Fuckingperfect on May 15, 2018 21:07:54 GMT
Weighing myself at home. I used to step on that bloody scale up to ten - fifteen times daily, and as part of the contract, I am not allowed (well I am free to do whatever the hell I want as long as I'm not under forced treatment for my eating disorder), to weigh myself between weigh ins at the doctor once a week. Kind of broke that several weeks ago. Dammit I know I shouldn't, but idk it's hard letting go of the "control". Yes I wrote "" because in reality the ed is controlling me. And I should know better seeing as my day gets ruined if I don't see the number I "want". Okay. Damn. Hang in there, Maren. Thanks, I really am trying my best to. |
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Post by Dani on May 16, 2018 14:47:39 GMT
Things are going down in court on September 11 😜
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Post by drnick on May 16, 2018 14:49:04 GMT
Things are going down in court on September 11 😜 It's gonna be sick.  |
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Post by Dani on May 16, 2018 14:49:31 GMT
Things are going down in court on September 11 😜 It's gonna be sick. 😈😈😈 |
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Post by drnick on May 16, 2018 14:50:39 GMT
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Post by Dani on May 16, 2018 14:53:49 GMT
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Post by drnick on May 16, 2018 14:55:01 GMT
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Post by Dani on May 16, 2018 16:15:18 GMT
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Post by Dani on May 16, 2018 16:21:27 GMT
I thought I could do without alcohol before Vegas but apparently there’s nothing yummier than a glass of rosè in the sun heeeh.
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Post by drnick on May 16, 2018 16:23:25 GMT
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Post by Dani on May 16, 2018 16:32:26 GMT
My glasses are always small 😇 But I’ll admit I can drink a lot of rosè and feel nothing 😬 |
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Post by drnick on May 16, 2018 16:33:48 GMT
My glasses are always small 😇 But I’ll admit I can drink a lot of rosè and feel nothing 😬  That's not a good sign.  |
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That's not a good sign.