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Post by blackrosefore on Jun 27, 2019 21:12:49 GMT
So... I REALLY NEED to clear the air on this, because I feel like a liar, now. Back before May 29th, which was the date of my surgery, I posted about my guy "dumping me" right before my surgery. I now have to eat crow---BECAUSE-- what actually happened was... he NEVER dumped me at all. He actually couldn't call me or text me or anything because my parents ( yes, mum and dad ) USED UP ALL of the available data on the family service plan for both May and for June, too!!!! As this was the case, it meant I was "denied coverage" when I attempted to call or text my boyfriend, and my boyfriend was denied the ability to contact me, too. So, we...well... both went dark on one another thanks to Verizon and my parents. I thought he dumped me, and he thought I had disappeared/dumped him. I received a large shock on Monday evening, when I was reaching for my phone thinking my sis had contacted me--- and no, it was-- boyfriend! Eeek! He was most apologetic that he had missed the entire opportunity to talk to me during my surgery ordeal. He knew he had been perceived as "an asshole"--- and later on, I found out that THIS WAS NOT his fault!!!! Verizon eventually gave me my data back, and Verizon finally showed me, that he had called me several times... without getting through. Verizon basically froze me out of data until now. I was still reeling Monday evening, because my boyfriend did that strange BEGGING thing. The words he chose made it very, very awkward, and sincere. Tuesday, ( even though I was an idiot and locked myself out of my own apartment) I tore up the whole day looking for WHAT REALLY HAPPENED. Instead of blaming my boyfriend, as it was abundantly clear how confused and riddled with guilt he was, I sought a rewind of my whole sickness, and the last two months. And my parents eventually said, "Sorry, that was us. You and your sis got almost no data. Verizon slowed us down because we used it up in the hospital when we were there with you to visit, and then we used a lot for grandma's funeral, when we went back to bury her." I know my mom is still mourning the loss of her mom. I am mourning the loss of my grandmother, but mostly mourning because it's for my mother. And now I am mourning the fact that I mistakenly thought my boyfriend had ghosted me during my surgery. He didn't. He just couldn't reach me. It really upset him, and I ended up trying to work it out again with him (and this took all of yesterday evening until, like, 1 AM today). My mother wasn't pleased we were "back together" when I told her. I'm not going to even TRY to understand that one. I know her... Mom pushed me extremely hard, and was...difficult... all the time I grew up living in her house. Thus, no guy I'm ever interested in will "be worthy of me" the way she looks at it. But I digress... So, a whole lot of hoopla for...what? I'm just ashamed, in a way. This is the confession thread. You confess your wrongs. Or whatever. I feel really happy and bad at the same time. This is when you really need a better service data plan. But single plans are SO EXPENSIVE, and Verizon entices with bundled plans and gives those a discount. Gah! Now, I hate my whole situation ( sickness, surgery, parents, Verizon) -- what a whole mountain of garbage!!!! I look so foolish. And none of this was within my control, nor could I have done anything to stop it all from happening.  My boyfriend emerges with his reputation intact, though. He turned out to be a good egg. |
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Post by cpf on Jun 28, 2019 4:18:15 GMT
Didnt know how more scary escalators could be after having no sleep for 26h
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Post by Dani on Jun 28, 2019 7:30:18 GMT
So... I REALLY NEED to clear the air on this, because I feel like a liar, now. Back before May 29th, which was the date of my surgery, I posted about my guy "dumping me" right before my surgery. I now have to eat crow---BECAUSE-- what actually happened was... he NEVER dumped me at all. He actually couldn't call me or text me or anything because my parents ( yes, mum and dad ) USED UP ALL of the available data on the family service plan for both May and for June, too!!!! As this was the case, it meant I was "denied coverage" when I attempted to call or text my boyfriend, and my boyfriend was denied the ability to contact me, too. So, we...well... both went dark on one another thanks to Verizon and my parents. I thought he dumped me, and he thought I had disappeared/dumped him. I received a large shock on Monday evening, when I was reaching for my phone thinking my sis had contacted me--- and no, it was-- boyfriend! Eeek! He was most apologetic that he had missed the entire opportunity to talk to me during my surgery ordeal. He knew he had been perceived as "an asshole"--- and later on, I found out that THIS WAS NOT his fault!!!! Verizon eventually gave me my data back, and Verizon finally showed me, that he had called me several times... without getting through. Verizon basically froze me out of data until now. I was still reeling Monday evening, because my boyfriend did that strange BEGGING thing. The words he chose made it very, very awkward, and sincere. Tuesday, ( even though I was an idiot and locked myself out of my own apartment) I tore up the whole day looking for WHAT REALLY HAPPENED. Instead of blaming my boyfriend, as it was abundantly clear how confused and riddled with guilt he was, I sought a rewind of my whole sickness, and the last two months. And my parents eventually said, "Sorry, that was us. You and your sis got almost no data. Verizon slowed us down because we used it up in the hospital when we were there with you to visit, and then we used a lot for grandma's funeral, when we went back to bury her." I know my mom is still mourning the loss of her mom. I am mourning the loss of my grandmother, but mostly mourning because it's for my mother. And now I am mourning the fact that I mistakenly thought my boyfriend had ghosted me during my surgery. He didn't. He just couldn't reach me. It really upset him, and I ended up trying to work it out again with him (and this took all of yesterday evening until, like, 1 AM today). My mother wasn't pleased we were "back together" when I told her. I'm not going to even TRY to understand that one. I know her... Mom pushed me extremely hard, and was...difficult... all the time I grew up living in her house. Thus, no guy I'm ever interested in will "be worthy of me" the way she looks at it. But I digress... So, a whole lot of hoopla for...what? I'm just ashamed, in a way. This is the confession thread. You confess your wrongs. Or whatever. I feel really happy and bad at the same time. This is when you really need a better service data plan. But single plans are SO EXPENSIVE, and Verizon entices with bundled plans and gives those a discount. Gah! Now, I hate my whole situation ( sickness, surgery, parents, Verizon) -- what a whole mountain of garbage!!!! I look so foolish. And none of this was within my control, nor could I have done anything to stop it all from happening. My boyfriend emerges with his reputation intact, though. He turned out to be a good egg. Glad it worked out well in the end💖 but guuuurl you need to cut your parents out from your phone surf stuff, especially your mom since that’s what her reaction was on you two getting back together.... 😏 |
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Post by blackrosefore on Jun 28, 2019 13:01:55 GMT
So... I REALLY NEED to clear the air on this, because I feel like a liar, now. Back before May 29th, which was the date of my surgery, I posted about my guy "dumping me" right before my surgery. I now have to eat crow---BECAUSE-- what actually happened was... he NEVER dumped me at all. He actually couldn't call me or text me or anything because my parents ( yes, mum and dad ) USED UP ALL of the available data on the family service plan for both May and for June, too!!!! As this was the case, it meant I was "denied coverage" when I attempted to call or text my boyfriend, and my boyfriend was denied the ability to contact me, too. So, we...well... both went dark on one another thanks to Verizon and my parents. I thought he dumped me, and he thought I had disappeared/dumped him. I received a large shock on Monday evening, when I was reaching for my phone thinking my sis had contacted me--- and no, it was-- boyfriend! Eeek! He was most apologetic that he had missed the entire opportunity to talk to me during my surgery ordeal. He knew he had been perceived as "an asshole"--- and later on, I found out that THIS WAS NOT his fault!!!! Verizon eventually gave me my data back, and Verizon finally showed me, that he had called me several times... without getting through. Verizon basically froze me out of data until now. I was still reeling Monday evening, because my boyfriend did that strange BEGGING thing. The words he chose made it very, very awkward, and sincere. Tuesday, ( even though I was an idiot and locked myself out of my own apartment) I tore up the whole day looking for WHAT REALLY HAPPENED. Instead of blaming my boyfriend, as it was abundantly clear how confused and riddled with guilt he was, I sought a rewind of my whole sickness, and the last two months. And my parents eventually said, "Sorry, that was us. You and your sis got almost no data. Verizon slowed us down because we used it up in the hospital when we were there with you to visit, and then we used a lot for grandma's funeral, when we went back to bury her." I know my mom is still mourning the loss of her mom. I am mourning the loss of my grandmother, but mostly mourning because it's for my mother. And now I am mourning the fact that I mistakenly thought my boyfriend had ghosted me during my surgery. He didn't. He just couldn't reach me. It really upset him, and I ended up trying to work it out again with him (and this took all of yesterday evening until, like, 1 AM today). My mother wasn't pleased we were "back together" when I told her. I'm not going to even TRY to understand that one. I know her... Mom pushed me extremely hard, and was...difficult... all the time I grew up living in her house. Thus, no guy I'm ever interested in will "be worthy of me" the way she looks at it. But I digress... So, a whole lot of hoopla for...what? I'm just ashamed, in a way. This is the confession thread. You confess your wrongs. Or whatever. I feel really happy and bad at the same time. This is when you really need a better service data plan. But single plans are SO EXPENSIVE, and Verizon entices with bundled plans and gives those a discount. Gah! Now, I hate my whole situation ( sickness, surgery, parents, Verizon) -- what a whole mountain of garbage!!!! I look so foolish. And none of this was within my control, nor could I have done anything to stop it all from happening. My boyfriend emerges with his reputation intact, though. He turned out to be a good egg. Glad it worked out well in the end💖 but guuuurl you need to cut your parents out from your phone surf stuff, especially your mom since that’s what her reaction was on you two getting back together.... 😏 I have been trying to AVOID speaking to my mother about this... so I didn't even tell my mother about my boyfriend at all. I waited until I was in the emergency room with sepsis, and my phone kept going off ( with his anxious texting), before I finally broke down and told my mom that I had a boyfriend for the first time. The fact that she wasn't happy about "us" getting back together.... What can I say? My mother's words were, " I don't want you getting hurt. You have a tendency to withdraw into yourself when someone has hurt you." I shrugged. I didn't follow up her statement or argue with her. I'd just lose my own personal energy if I did that.
I think my mom's attached to my sister-in-law. My brother dated several girls, and my mother knew all about that. My mother discouraged me from dating. She encouraged me being in school and focusing on academics. I don't think it really ever occurred to her that I'd find anybody. Perhaps, she perceives me as too anxious, and once, during a bitter argument, she told me "you have connectivity issues." I've lost count of how many guys have hit on me over the years...even those who clearly already had girlfriends! But I haven't dated or kept a steady. So this whole thing probably deeply startles my mother now, even though she won't say it out loud. And when I mentioned the guy at work who had been making googly eyes at me since July of last year when I first got hired, she glommed onto that situation very quickly. This guy and i have barely exchanged any dialogue whatsoever. As for my current boyfriend, he's gone through me with a fine-toothed comb. 
So, who is safer for me? I'd rather choose the guy who donated his time to me ( even though we got snafued by my parents and Verizon), over the one who just ogles me from a distance for almost a year, and doesn't say a word of real import. Plus, my current guy is the oldest kid in his family ( just like me), and he had really strict parents, just like mine are... So, there's a shared and painful emotional past misery for both of us.
But, like you said, I'll try to avoid speaking of my boyfriend to my mother in the future. No need to make it worse.
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Post by cpf on Jun 29, 2019 11:26:37 GMT
Dads bad.. I dunno what to do.. Was rushing to station to go there but sis sent me home.
Lost..
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Post by blackrosefore on Jun 29, 2019 14:37:38 GMT
Dads bad.. I dunno what to do.. Was rushing to station to go there but sis sent me home. Lost.. Sorry, to hear that your dad's unwell.  Do you have any information? |
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Post by Dani on Jul 1, 2019 0:28:20 GMT
Last night I had a little panic attack during So what when she was up in the air
I had this stupid feeling that she was gonna fall cause she was so high up so I stared crying because I imagine it without wanting
And today the harness got stuck 😐 and I almost peed my pants on the spot
And all I kept thinking was pls be stuck up there and don’t fall
But she came down safety and nobody probably noticed that So what wasn’t supposed to be like that. But yeah so sad for her it wasn’t the way it should have been.
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Post by qcpatdive on Jul 1, 2019 1:17:06 GMT
Last night I had a little panic attack during So what when she was up in the air I had this stupid feeling that she was gonna fall cause she was so high up so I stared crying because I imagine it without wanting And today the harness got stuck 😐 and I almost peed my pants on the spot And all I kept thinking was pls be stuck up there and don’t fall But she came down safety and nobody probably noticed that So what wasn’t supposed to be like that. But yeah so sad for her it wasn’t the way it should have been. OMG 😱 I understand your fear. I'm relieved that everything went right for her. |
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Post by cpf on Jul 1, 2019 5:51:47 GMT
Dads bad.. I dunno what to do.. Was rushing to station to go there but sis sent me home. Lost.. Sorry, to hear that your dad's unwell. Do you have any information? He had difficult weekend. Saturday they didnt wanna risk surgery, yesterday they did surgery and moved him to another hospital cuz of his heart. Had talks with family and i decided to go to Paris today anyways.. Theres not much i can do here and has no sense to wait at his bed 24/7. And to be honest... when its too late its too late. But i trust him to fight and hang on. |
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Post by Dani on Jul 1, 2019 6:24:19 GMT
Last night I had a little panic attack during So what when she was up in the air I had this stupid feeling that she was gonna fall cause she was so high up so I stared crying because I imagine it without wanting And today the harness got stuck 😐 and I almost peed my pants on the spot And all I kept thinking was pls be stuck up there and don’t fall But she came down safety and nobody probably noticed that So what wasn’t supposed to be like that. But yeah so sad for her it wasn’t the way it should have been. OMG 😱 I understand your fear. I'm relieved that everything went right for her. It felt super much higher than usual, and I swear I don’t think it’s worth it if it can get stuck like that and all it can as well break 😭 |
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Post by blackrosefore on Jul 1, 2019 10:29:20 GMT
Sorry, to hear that your dad's unwell. Do you have any information? He had difficult weekend. Saturday they didnt wanna risk surgery, yesterday they did surgery and moved him to another hospital cuz of his heart. Had talks with family and i decided to go to Paris today anyways.. Theres not much i can do here and has no sense to wait at his bed 24/7. And to be honest... when its too late its too late. But i trust him to fight and hang on. I'm beyond sorry that your dad has a weak heart. Like you said, you have to hold onto your sanity, so taking some time off ( and not being at his bedside 24/7) is in order. I'll pray for your dad. |
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Post by blackrosefore on Jul 1, 2019 10:31:15 GMT
Last night I had a little panic attack during So what when she was up in the air I had this stupid feeling that she was gonna fall cause she was so high up so I stared crying because I imagine it without wanting And today the harness got stuck 😐 and I almost peed my pants on the spot And all I kept thinking was pls be stuck up there and don’t fall But she came down safety and nobody probably noticed that So what wasn’t supposed to be like that. But yeah so sad for her it wasn’t the way it should have been. In the back of my mind...this has always been a worry of mine. I force myself around it, and pray God will watch out for Pink's safety for the entire tour. That's what I do, because I am powerless, and He isn't. |
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Post by Danielle on Jul 1, 2019 20:15:09 GMT
Working. Well, I should be. I have a headache and can’t hold focus so I’m here. Yay. Can’t wait to juggle fewer balls as I keep dropping them. It will be worth it in the end...
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Post by cpf on Jul 1, 2019 21:26:32 GMT
After 30000 footsteps my feet r done for the day... Really done
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Post by Danielle on Jul 1, 2019 22:26:44 GMT
After 30000 footsteps my feet r done for the day... Really done I’ve only done 12.5k, but I wore flip flops and they rubbed a layer of my foot skin off. It burns. Kill me, basically. |
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Do you have any information? 
