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Post by Dani on Mar 27, 2019 19:35:24 GMT
I miss Pink a lot tonight 😩 Exactly like that  💔 |
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Post by drnick on Mar 27, 2019 19:41:29 GMT
Exactly like that 💔  |
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Post by Dani on Mar 27, 2019 19:44:00 GMT
Exactly like that 💔 Haaaaa! Cute 😍 |
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Post by chrispycreme7 on Mar 28, 2019 12:45:23 GMT
About a month ago I told a friend that this is going to be a horrible year (I finally have a hold on my anxiety and depression, so I've been in a good place lately) I'm surrounded by death or things near death....I'm expecting to experience it a lot this year...last week on Monday the first one happened. My dog,my baby of almost 15yrs died . I had her through soo many of my major life events. Somehow I'm not losing it every 5 minutes. I think it's because I know she was starting to suffer. I had her cremated 💔 Everything isn't all bad....I'm talking to someone new..I doubt it'll go anywhere but it's nice lol you can go down that road w/ that someone new even if you dont know where it will lead. If you are enjoying it now, go with it. No pressure on this this or that. enjoy the now. I understand the rough year thing. hang in there. not an easy one for me either, but we will survive. <3 and sorry about your pup. I cried so much when I lost my dog. ughhhhh. I lost my grandpa at around the same time and swear I cried harder for my dog. (and I dont mean that as anything - it doesnt mean i loved her more than my grandpa or anything - it was just rough losing that friend. I dunno what it was but it hit me so hard....... maybe because Grandpa died and that was that - but we had to make the decision (a hard one) to let Bailey go.... Ugggg. I feel for you. ❤️) yeah, as long as it's fun.. honestly though she's seen my scars and she seems ok with them that was a worry of mine. Sorry, it seems a lot of people are having a tough year already 💙💙💙 So far I'm handling her loss well. I notice she's gone when everything goes quiet....thanks Jeff |
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Post by chrispycreme7 on Mar 28, 2019 12:50:52 GMT
About a month ago I told a friend that this is going to be a horrible year (I finally have a hold on my anxiety and depression, so I've been in a good place lately) I'm surrounded by death or things near death....I'm expecting to experience it a lot this year...last week on Monday the first one happened. My dog,my baby of almost 15yrs died . I had her through soo many of my major life events. Somehow I'm not losing it every 5 minutes. I think it's because I know she was starting to suffer. I had her cremated 💔 Everything isn't all bad....I'm talking to someone new..I doubt it'll go anywhere but it's nice lol I'm sorry  I know you're going through a lot already with your health, and then on top of that this too. Try focus on positivity and happy things, and it will be a little easier. I guess death and loss is a part of life I'm fearing this year every other day tbh Which is not good, but at the same time there's nothing that makes me more grateful and more present than knowing that things won't always be the same. Talking to a new therapist or what do you mean?  it's been crazy...I don't even remember lots of last year and I honestly don't know how I made it. Every time I get a grasp of what's going on something else happens.🙄😤 I kinda have a new mantra and that's just to find joy where I can find it lol...hahahaha no taking to someone new as in A SOMEONE 😂😂 |
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Post by heehawes on Mar 30, 2019 3:37:36 GMT
Learning more about whats going on with my Grandma and its f***ing hard to take in..... I didnt even realize I was crying. Does that happen? Like tears rolling down my face and just all the sudden realized like "oh. ooops."
eghhhh.
They're still going.
I don't know how I feel.
and I don't know how I'm supposed to feel.
🤷🏻♀️
I also feel like details are being left out to me along the way - I mean, medical stuffs is personal information, but like its weird to get some details and not others and have to have your head fill in the rest....
I'm not feeling as positive about things though.
I know its life. And that this is a part of that, but still it doesnt mean it doesnt hurt.
later, gators.
🐊
I wanna say more, but I don't know what.
Cancer is a new thing to me (thank God I've been so lucky to never have to deal with this stuffs before - thank you to anyone of you for listening)
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Post by Dani on Mar 30, 2019 6:54:35 GMT
Learning more about whats going on with my Grandma and its f***ing hard to take in..... I didnt even realize I was crying. Does that happen? Like tears rolling down my face and just all the sudden realized like "oh. ooops." eghhhh. They're still going. I don't know how I feel. and I don't know how I'm supposed to feel. 🤷🏻♀️ I also feel like details are being left out to me along the way - I mean, medical stuffs is personal information, but like its weird to get some details and not others and have to have your head fill in the rest.... I'm not feeling as positive about things though. I know its life. And that this is a part of that, but still it doesnt mean it doesnt hurt. later, gators. 🐊 I wanna say more, but I don't know what. Cancer is a new thing to me (thank God I've been so lucky to never have to deal with this stuffs before - thank you to anyone of you for listening) Of course it hurts, Jeff. I’d be worried if you weren’t hurt and sad. Take your time and let me know if I can do anything ❤️ You know where to find me, always, anytime. |
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Post by heehawes on Mar 30, 2019 7:22:38 GMT
Learning more about whats going on with my Grandma and its f***ing hard to take in..... I didnt even realize I was crying. Does that happen? Like tears rolling down my face and just all the sudden realized like "oh. ooops." eghhhh. They're still going. I don't know how I feel. and I don't know how I'm supposed to feel. 🤷🏻♀️ I also feel like details are being left out to me along the way - I mean, medical stuffs is personal information, but like its weird to get some details and not others and have to have your head fill in the rest.... I'm not feeling as positive about things though. I know its life. And that this is a part of that, but still it doesnt mean it doesnt hurt. later, gators. 🐊 I wanna say more, but I don't know what. Cancer is a new thing to me (thank God I've been so lucky to never have to deal with this stuffs before - thank you to anyone of you for listening) Of course it hurts, Jeff. I’d be worried if you weren’t hurt and sad. Take your time and let me know if I can do anything ❤️ You know where to find me, always, anytime. thanks. and yes I know and you're amazing for that. ❤️ I'll fill you in when we talk next.... Like... I'm ok.... it just sucks. |
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Post by Dani on Mar 30, 2019 13:15:40 GMT
Of course it hurts, Jeff. I’d be worried if you weren’t hurt and sad. Take your time and let me know if I can do anything ❤️ You know where to find me, always, anytime. thanks. and yes I know and you're amazing for that. ❤️ I'll fill you in when we talk next.... Like... I'm ok.... it just sucks. <3 |
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Post by Dani on Mar 30, 2019 13:38:01 GMT
Haha I think my mom gives me bipolarity / borderline when I'm with her no joke  |
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Post by drnick on Mar 30, 2019 13:41:12 GMT
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Post by Dani on Mar 30, 2019 13:44:08 GMT
Haha I think my mom gives me bipolarity / borderline when I'm with her no joke  I see another instablock coming.  Nahhhm, haha. We hung out and did some shopping and all is fine then she gets annoying and my mouth can say stupid shit and I can get upset and then I calm down and like everything's like fine. But like later when we said goodbye I'll will feel bad because of it  |
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Post by Dani on Apr 2, 2019 12:15:48 GMT
I've realized that sometimes I'm extremely sensitive  I can feel something 110% and then one slightest thing that isn't the way my mind imagined it I feel -110% = really don't want anything to do with any of it. And like, I know it's just temporary but this feeling is fucking annoying and makes me fucking hate myself  |
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Post by Dani on Apr 2, 2019 12:17:15 GMT
So now instead of just cancelling I'm gonna try and not fuck shit up |
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Post by heehawes on Apr 2, 2019 12:23:38 GMT
So now instead of just cancelling I'm gonna try and not fuck shit up bee you. you dont mess things up. thats in your head. try not to expect too much perfection from anyone, and not yourself either. just try your best and make the best of what comes. i know thats easier said than done, because we hold ourselves to high standards - but allow yourself to make mistakes. we're only human. i beat myself up all the time - Im trying to be better though :] Also I dont know what any of this is about. But good luck. Glad you're not canceling whatever it is. you'll be fine / wont fuck it up. I promise. have fun. :] |
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I know you're going through a lot already with your health, and then on top of that this too. Try focus on positivity and happy things, and it will be a little easier. I guess death and loss is a part of life 
I see another instablock coming. 
I can feel something 110% and then one slightest thing that isn't the way my mind imagined it I feel -110% = really don't want anything to do with any of it. And like, I know it's just temporary but this feeling is fucking annoying and makes me fucking hate myself 