Does the whole world have their shit together but me?
Not in regards to here / this forum / the P!nk community
But in regards to just humans in general
Its frustrating to me that more people (like people I see in the real world) don’t talk about their mental wellbeing.
I wish it was less of a off limits subject.
I wish people didn’t always feel like they had to put on a happy face to the world at all times. Yes of course its good to smile and be nice to people and all that - and to treat people with respect.
But I wish it was more normal to say “hey, I’m having a bad day”.
Or like “fuck…. My anxiety is rough right now” or “i just want everybody to leave me alone” or “I need somebody to listen to my thoughts for a second”
Thats just a general thought
I think if more people could just say when they are having a rough time (because I know it happens to everybody) that people who are dealing with difficulties would feel less out of place.
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Anyway - I bring that up cause I’ve been all up in my head lately..
Lots of anxiety - just about everything.
“Jeff, whats this all about?”
Its just literally everything.
Life isnt bad at all.
Life is fun.
However I think one of my issues is just a bizarre social existence.
I work all the time, and have to talk to people every single day.
But its while bartending, and basically being an artificial human.
I can say real honest things at work, but you are still basically playing a character. And its draining.
I work around people and customers so much that days off I just want to be alone.
Then I do that and feel even more isolated.
Its a damn cycle.
And then I am stuck there and my brain wanders to (wherever) it goes and it just creates all sorts of weird made up scenarios.
And of course the made up situations are never good.
Fiona was talking a while back about how we as creatures are programed to be stuck in these not so ideal thought processes. We are programmed to remember sad, scary, traumatic situations - because that serves us better for survival. Remember the difficult times so its easier to escape them.
She mentioned how it serves ourselves no real purpose (for survival) to remember fun happy safe good times. Literally - it doesnt serve a function.
So our brains just kinda kick that stuff to the side.
She mentioned how we need to force / retrain our brains to absorb those positive experiences so we can have a healthier happier brain.
I dunno… I get it. And I do appreciate all the good. But sometimes other stuffs just gets in the way.
I hope yall are doing alright.
But like if you’re not at some point / and wanna chat. Im here.
Love yalls.
In ET voice: “Beee gooooood”